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im just cooling off in shanes wonderous air conditioned room after hours of being outside cleaning up his car, and lighting off fireworks. shane loves me so much, i just think i get too disappointed when he isnt all over me and talking like shakespeare to me. my thought process needs to change. i really want to start reading books again i used to average out 2 books a week. and that has seemed to change since i have become so consumed with the world. but i realized that the "world" is what we make it. after september it is going to be weird and i wont have my little sidekick to keep me company and be my companion on little adventures and the completion of goals we set. september 9th i will be leaving to califronia and i am afraid i wont want to return to michigan. this summer has been fun. i finally feel like i am accepted in a life i thought i once wanted so bad. now i am thinking i want out and experience another life. ????? so i am never home these days. i come home around 3am and leave by noon the next day. i miss my family. <3 my dad might be losing his job in the fall and that is going to bring some hard times. i dont know. hit me up.