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this weather i hoped would of brought brillance upon myself. i feel trapped within x box which has stolen so many conversations and love. this week of house sitting has cut many strings that have kept alot of mouths shut. i am glad to know that a friendship can now start over again. with each drink, with each shot i distance myself away from you and more and more words i felt i did not need to say to you anymore. i did hurt you and sometimes i forget just how much. my fault. but that is it. there are all these things i see that i want to do. so many things i wish you would do. so manythings i wish i would do. but it is so easy to forget that we only live once. it is so easy to forget that THIS day will never happen again. i am frightend by this discovery. good night. my dreams are this much better.