be optimistic

[alosthope]

i really need to change my attitude. i am happy but i like to hide it. it scares me that you DO know me better than i know myself. cause you bring up things that i was really feeling but never really thought that that was the problem. i love you. i really do. and i think that i will love you more if i was more myself. and i cant keep on relying on others to make me happy. but i have been down cause without money and security...well you dont got that much to be happy for. but i got you and that always makes me smile. i just need to APPRECIATE it more.

i realze now why i didnt really have a childhood like others...becasue i was always around grown ups and i was the only child and always wanted to be older. damn.