My deepest apologies my love...
Just talked to the sponsor real quick on the morning smoke break. Needed to do a quick check in cause i know I'm being ridiculous. I don't know why it was so hard for me to let that go... maybe guilt, shame, embarassment, fear of being judged or left.
The main thing I know is that I couldn't let it go, I was ridiculous, I should have recognized my limits and dropped the matter, instead I made it worse by beating a dead horse. I got upset because you were right and I didn't like that - I was feeling sorry for myself. Sorry and Scared. I created an impossible situation - I didn't want to change the topic and at the same time wanted everything to be ok.
Regardless, I just got myself back into line a little bit - sponsors are good for calling you on your shit, telling you to get over yourself, then reminding you that you don't have to be perfect to be loved.
My deepest apologies my love...
It's you and me
and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me
and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes
off of you...
I love you so much...
The main thing I know is that I couldn't let it go, I was ridiculous, I should have recognized my limits and dropped the matter, instead I made it worse by beating a dead horse. I got upset because you were right and I didn't like that - I was feeling sorry for myself. Sorry and Scared. I created an impossible situation - I didn't want to change the topic and at the same time wanted everything to be ok.
Regardless, I just got myself back into line a little bit - sponsors are good for calling you on your shit, telling you to get over yourself, then reminding you that you don't have to be perfect to be loved.
My deepest apologies my love...
It's you and me
and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me
and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes
off of you...
I love you so much...