Sunshine
*smile*
Today is nice... 50 degrees out and sunny... so nice to see a blue sky!!!
I have my psychiatrist's appointment tonight. After two full years, I'm going to go off of my antidepressant. I'm fucking excited! I definitely needed it for a while... but now I feel that I've done a lot of work with cognitive/behavioral therapy, made so many positive changes in my life over the past two years... in a much better place physically, spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and just plain have my life together a hell of a lot more than I did then.... I wanted to get off of them earlier in the year but the doc and I agreed to wait until after a bit of winter had passed just to be sure... now I know that I want to get off of them for sure as I have noticed a bit of the side effects and that just isn't cool! hahahahhaha It wasn't that big of a deal before but now it definitely needs to be remedied....
So.... we'll see what happens tonight! I'm on a low dose already so I'm not sure how this will work... whether we'll just stop it completely or wean down....
Have to go to D.C. tomorrow for work... goddamn board meetings.... getting picked up at 5am to drive down, have the meeting 10 - 2, and then drive back.... don't mind driving or getting up early... but the thought of being in the car with M and C for that long is DREADFUL!!! At least I was able to convince them to make it a one day trip. I didn't want to be away from home overnight- especially for a lousy four hour meeting. I will be PASSING OUT after my appointment tonight... so I can get some sleep before Lou gets home. :-) Also, my suffering last night was definitely cramps ... confirmed this morning. Woo fucking hoo.
Called my landlord today to give me a heads up about apartments opening up May 1st.... they don't have any 1 BR with offices but will be getting back to me about 2 BR's.... would be nice to stay with them just to make the deposit thing easier... they're not the greatest but they're certainly not the worst. At least I'd know what to expect. :-) If she decides she's not ready for this yet then I'll probably just stay where I am...
March 4th seems like such a long way away.... that's my test date for the carpentry apprenticeship... it wouldn't actually start until May or June.... told Mom today that if she is able to do birthday presents this year and doesn't have anything else in mind that I need to start building up my stash of tools.... excited about having a good reason to get a car too! I couldn't justify it by just wanting it for convenience sake....
Dr. M. is driving me crazy - I need to make packets for everyone and he isn't responding to any of my emails all week! I'd just make the packets but then he'd call and want something changed LOL.
Back to work....
My heart is smiling and my eyes are too!
Today is nice... 50 degrees out and sunny... so nice to see a blue sky!!!
I have my psychiatrist's appointment tonight. After two full years, I'm going to go off of my antidepressant. I'm fucking excited! I definitely needed it for a while... but now I feel that I've done a lot of work with cognitive/behavioral therapy, made so many positive changes in my life over the past two years... in a much better place physically, spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and just plain have my life together a hell of a lot more than I did then.... I wanted to get off of them earlier in the year but the doc and I agreed to wait until after a bit of winter had passed just to be sure... now I know that I want to get off of them for sure as I have noticed a bit of the side effects and that just isn't cool! hahahahhaha It wasn't that big of a deal before but now it definitely needs to be remedied....
So.... we'll see what happens tonight! I'm on a low dose already so I'm not sure how this will work... whether we'll just stop it completely or wean down....
Have to go to D.C. tomorrow for work... goddamn board meetings.... getting picked up at 5am to drive down, have the meeting 10 - 2, and then drive back.... don't mind driving or getting up early... but the thought of being in the car with M and C for that long is DREADFUL!!! At least I was able to convince them to make it a one day trip. I didn't want to be away from home overnight- especially for a lousy four hour meeting. I will be PASSING OUT after my appointment tonight... so I can get some sleep before Lou gets home. :-) Also, my suffering last night was definitely cramps ... confirmed this morning. Woo fucking hoo.
Called my landlord today to give me a heads up about apartments opening up May 1st.... they don't have any 1 BR with offices but will be getting back to me about 2 BR's.... would be nice to stay with them just to make the deposit thing easier... they're not the greatest but they're certainly not the worst. At least I'd know what to expect. :-) If she decides she's not ready for this yet then I'll probably just stay where I am...
March 4th seems like such a long way away.... that's my test date for the carpentry apprenticeship... it wouldn't actually start until May or June.... told Mom today that if she is able to do birthday presents this year and doesn't have anything else in mind that I need to start building up my stash of tools.... excited about having a good reason to get a car too! I couldn't justify it by just wanting it for convenience sake....
Dr. M. is driving me crazy - I need to make packets for everyone and he isn't responding to any of my emails all week! I'd just make the packets but then he'd call and want something changed LOL.
Back to work....
My heart is smiling and my eyes are too!