Thank you for forcing this out of me.
Because I affect more than one person:
There are many things I wish I could explain to you about happiness, sadness, strangeness, and the all-encompassing feeling of helplessness that is the current composition of myself, but I'm writing in a little box. True, my ideas and feelings ARE sad, but let me tell you, they are with good intentions. These feelings are more like reactions to my ideas, as my ideas stem from the most remote, romantic, dark, and dreamy part of my body and mind, and once I feel these ideas it becomes more than clear that even though these are my feelings, this is not reality, thusly, forcing out the suppressed realist in myself to remind me that the government sucks, everything is rigged, NASA is a pile of shit, we are so far removed from one another, and money really really really is at the bottom of EVERYTHING, leading ultimately to feelings of disgust for my own kind and the helplessness in wanting so much better for everyone. Basically, I apologize to anyone I have consciously encountered, for I have either unloaded upon you ideas of surreal happiness and love only to take it all away in a breath and leave you confused about yourself and worried about me, or I have succeeded in pressuring you to do drugs--and not the good ones--in a public bathroom. Or both.
This is not a promise, this is not reassurance, this is an apology.
There are many things I wish I could explain to you about happiness, sadness, strangeness, and the all-encompassing feeling of helplessness that is the current composition of myself, but I'm writing in a little box. True, my ideas and feelings ARE sad, but let me tell you, they are with good intentions. These feelings are more like reactions to my ideas, as my ideas stem from the most remote, romantic, dark, and dreamy part of my body and mind, and once I feel these ideas it becomes more than clear that even though these are my feelings, this is not reality, thusly, forcing out the suppressed realist in myself to remind me that the government sucks, everything is rigged, NASA is a pile of shit, we are so far removed from one another, and money really really really is at the bottom of EVERYTHING, leading ultimately to feelings of disgust for my own kind and the helplessness in wanting so much better for everyone. Basically, I apologize to anyone I have consciously encountered, for I have either unloaded upon you ideas of surreal happiness and love only to take it all away in a breath and leave you confused about yourself and worried about me, or I have succeeded in pressuring you to do drugs--and not the good ones--in a public bathroom. Or both.
This is not a promise, this is not reassurance, this is an apology.