I feel whorish
I'd never realized before how much a night of cheap, meaningless sex with an asshole of an ex-boyfriend can make you feel quite so cold, lonely, and used on the inside... What a shitty situation... I should learn from this... will I? Hmm... I hope so...
As for anyone staying in Pullman for Thanksgiving, I have the oppurtunity to stay in town, my parents are leaving the decision up to me, and I have to know by the end of the week... those that are staying want me to stay, and those that are leaving really don't care, and those that live in Colo, want me home. It's really pretty complicated, but if I do leave, chances are that I won't be home (to either home) at the times that really matter - people will either be gone or smoething else will be going on... That's a toughie. The guy I like is staying, and my friend is coming back... There are like 4 people staying and a bunch of iffies... but there are so many other reasons to go home... I may just end up flipping a coin because I'm pretty sure that no matter which way I choose, I'll have wished that I'd have chosen the other...
Meanwhile I'm still cold, lonely, and used on the inside and that's not helping anything... neither is this freazing weather! boo. I'm going to pout now. Over cocoa... and homework... boo on that too.
As for anyone staying in Pullman for Thanksgiving, I have the oppurtunity to stay in town, my parents are leaving the decision up to me, and I have to know by the end of the week... those that are staying want me to stay, and those that are leaving really don't care, and those that live in Colo, want me home. It's really pretty complicated, but if I do leave, chances are that I won't be home (to either home) at the times that really matter - people will either be gone or smoething else will be going on... That's a toughie. The guy I like is staying, and my friend is coming back... There are like 4 people staying and a bunch of iffies... but there are so many other reasons to go home... I may just end up flipping a coin because I'm pretty sure that no matter which way I choose, I'll have wished that I'd have chosen the other...
Meanwhile I'm still cold, lonely, and used on the inside and that's not helping anything... neither is this freazing weather! boo. I'm going to pout now. Over cocoa... and homework... boo on that too.