i poured my heart out over coffee
I don't really know what I want to say. I don't know if I want to be cryptic and self indulgent, I don't know if I want to be flighty and whimsical, I don't know if I just want to tell the truth.
It's occured to me lately how I've managed to drive pretty much everyone that I care about away from me, through various ways and means. It's quite the talent. Although it means that now, when I look in the mirror, I'm not entirely sure who I see anymore. Sometimes I wish it could be about two years ago, when everything as wonderful as it has been in a long time.
I've spent the last few days being out of the house as much as humanly possible, and it has, I will admit, been fun. But I can't afford to keep doing that. I need to sit myself down and sort myself the fuck out. THIS IS BORING BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH.
It's occured to me lately how I've managed to drive pretty much everyone that I care about away from me, through various ways and means. It's quite the talent. Although it means that now, when I look in the mirror, I'm not entirely sure who I see anymore. Sometimes I wish it could be about two years ago, when everything as wonderful as it has been in a long time.
I've spent the last few days being out of the house as much as humanly possible, and it has, I will admit, been fun. But I can't afford to keep doing that. I need to sit myself down and sort myself the fuck out. THIS IS BORING BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH.