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I'm alive (barely).
I just suffered/survived through my first ever law school final yesterday.
It went just about as terribly as I expected it to -___-
Literally, EVERYONE walked out of that test feeling as though they failed/fucked everything up. One of my classmates started hyperventilating mid-way through the exam, and some kid puked in the bushes outside the classroom right after he finished. Apparently this is what law school finals are normally like. Despair, failure, feeling like you'll never be good enough and that you're in the middle of making the biggest mistake of your life. All the upperclassmen were laughing at us as we exited our three-and-a-half-hour civil procedure final (THREE-AND-A-HALF HOURS!) because we looked so lost.
The best part is? I took the test - but somehow lost it.
We use ExamSoft - a program that allows us to type and submit our tests. For some reason, while everyone was submitting their tests, mine got lost in the shuffle because everyone was uploading their tests at once and the database couldn't handle all of it. I went to the registrar to see if the tech people could somehow extract it from my computer, and they told me that it had uploaded - but they couldn't figure out where it uploaded. They told me not to worry about it now, because they'd find it. And if they couldn't find it...yeah.
No, seriously. That's what the tech said to me verbatim. "We'll find it, don't worry! You have three other finals to take, so focus on those. We'll find this one. And if we don't....uh, heh heh, yeah. But good luck on the rest of your finals!" All I know is that I'm not taking that bullshit test A SECOND TIME. I refuse. I will flip 8 million shits before I sit through another, similar, soul-crushing civil procedure exam.
This shit would happen to me.
If they lost my exam, I better get a take home make-up, at the very least.
So, to sum it all up, I literally wasted almost four hours of my life.
I think the saddest part about all of this is that I have to suffer through three more of these :( Oh my god, I can't even begin to explain how awful I feel. Why do I even want to be a lawyer again? Fuck this shit. Fuck it all. Why the hell did I think that torturing myself would be a great idea?
Sigh. My hardest final - Property - is tomorrow, and I'm beyond fucked for that one.
If I don't update again by December 10th or 11th, I probably died at the hands of one of my remaining finals. Or I just killed myself.
I just suffered/survived through my first ever law school final yesterday.
It went just about as terribly as I expected it to -___-
Literally, EVERYONE walked out of that test feeling as though they failed/fucked everything up. One of my classmates started hyperventilating mid-way through the exam, and some kid puked in the bushes outside the classroom right after he finished. Apparently this is what law school finals are normally like. Despair, failure, feeling like you'll never be good enough and that you're in the middle of making the biggest mistake of your life. All the upperclassmen were laughing at us as we exited our three-and-a-half-hour civil procedure final (THREE-AND-A-HALF HOURS!) because we looked so lost.
The best part is? I took the test - but somehow lost it.
We use ExamSoft - a program that allows us to type and submit our tests. For some reason, while everyone was submitting their tests, mine got lost in the shuffle because everyone was uploading their tests at once and the database couldn't handle all of it. I went to the registrar to see if the tech people could somehow extract it from my computer, and they told me that it had uploaded - but they couldn't figure out where it uploaded. They told me not to worry about it now, because they'd find it. And if they couldn't find it...yeah.
No, seriously. That's what the tech said to me verbatim. "We'll find it, don't worry! You have three other finals to take, so focus on those. We'll find this one. And if we don't....uh, heh heh, yeah. But good luck on the rest of your finals!" All I know is that I'm not taking that bullshit test A SECOND TIME. I refuse. I will flip 8 million shits before I sit through another, similar, soul-crushing civil procedure exam.
This shit would happen to me.
If they lost my exam, I better get a take home make-up, at the very least.
So, to sum it all up, I literally wasted almost four hours of my life.
I think the saddest part about all of this is that I have to suffer through three more of these :( Oh my god, I can't even begin to explain how awful I feel. Why do I even want to be a lawyer again? Fuck this shit. Fuck it all. Why the hell did I think that torturing myself would be a great idea?
Sigh. My hardest final - Property - is tomorrow, and I'm beyond fucked for that one.
If I don't update again by December 10th or 11th, I probably died at the hands of one of my remaining finals. Or I just killed myself.