what happens when you die?
i had some pretty disturbing realities face me today. i debated whether there is religion and/or a God. i can not believe that people just fall off the face of this planet and we can't figure out or know for sure what actually happens...when i think of it that way, i feel like it's a sign of religion and that a sole God keeps you. Good and Evil, it all falls into place with God and Satan when you think about religion. then you get through the hundreds of religions in the world and choose which one you actually believe in. Now if you think about it from another stance, no religion whatsoever, and that it's spiritual and after death you can see what still happens on earth, how do you explain spirits without someone who made them? but then if you think about God, a higher being, who made him? how did it ALL start? how are we here? i always think about this while driving places because mainly i have nothing else to ponder on. but this is just the un-answerable question. forget the history of religion and god and the big bang crap, if there really is a god, who made him? he couldn't have just appeared. when i think that there could be a higher power above a god that actually made him, i feel like i'm living an illusion because who could make "God"? the almighty? the all-powerful? could he too have been made?
it's all way too difficult. i think death isn't what torments me the most, it's what happens when you die. because i don't know. and the consequences i'd have to pay to find out are...tough and, ironically, sinful.
it's all way too difficult. i think death isn't what torments me the most, it's what happens when you die. because i don't know. and the consequences i'd have to pay to find out are...tough and, ironically, sinful.