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Okay so, Ive been watching The Sixth Day and well, it got to the end of the movie and I was officially bored so I stopped watching and I called Sam to see where we're going for coffee today so that I could call Jenny and tell her where to meet us and than I called Robyn but her cell phone is turned off because her granparents turned it off, they say they're tired of paying her bill for her to not be comming home and doing what shes supposed to do. I hear Robyn has a second job now too. This sucks though because they dont know where Robyn is and well, that leaves me no way of getting a hold of her to see if shes wanting to come to church or not tonight. Shes not working either, I called Magnolias. Than I called Tony. He didnt answer his phone so I dont know what hes up to... but I havent heard from him all day! Called Julie to see where she is and what shes doing today. Shes on her way back from Mount Vernon because she went up there to hang out with Rhianne. Called Pat, hes cleaning some guys house or something because theres going to be a party tonight. And other than that, Im sitting here bored now. Waiting for someone to talk to... I wish I had someone to talk to, Im starting to feel sick again.
Hmm, lets see...
I have about 45 minutes left till I leave to go hang out with Sam and go to church. I need to find some new kids to talk to and I need to really think about having something to say in the meeting tonight because Im trying to speak up more and really reach out more. Im trying to climb the religous ladder I suppose... maybe Ill pray tonight, I never pray.
Im going to go get my water from outside.
I havent talked to Cate in a long time.
I wish I had my liscence sometimes because than, time like this where I have about 45 minutes to do nothing, Id be able to go out somewhere and do something for a while.
Apparently Justin doesnt like Paver. Understandable.
Sam and Jenny and I are going to Scotties in Worthington by Jens house, its my first time hanging out with the both of them at the same time. I cant wait but at the same time I still feel sick so I kind of can wait. lol.
I really wish Tony would freaking call me.
My family came home today and claimed I did nothing when I really did a lot and so I was yelling at my sister till she left but when she left she took the cell phone with her which sucks because I wanted to take the cell phone tonight, but I should get it back by 9:30pm or 10pm.
I need someone to talk to, I need something to do.
I hate that my life sucks when Im not busy, I hate that Im not comfertable with having nothing to do and I hate that I dont feel comfertable when Im at home half the time. I hate that I always want someone to be with me, I hate that I cant always have that person thats with me be Tony. I hate the topic of racism, and I hate my final projects. I hate that I dont have a job, but I hate that I cant get one because Im young. I hate that I get taken advantage of, I hate when Im manipulated, I hate when Im lied to. I hate when I feel sick, I hate when Im smiling. I hate when Im indecisive, I hate when Im unsatisfied. I hate when Im arguing, I hate when Im in trouble. I hate when I hurt people, I hate when people hurt me. I hate bugs. I hate pets. I hate walking in freezing rain. I hate the windy when its going my way. I hate the sunset, and I hate that I dont want to hate it. I hate that I dont feel pretty and I hate that I cant sing. I hate that I cant dance. I hate that I hate a lot of things.... sorry somewhere along the way of writing this post, I got lost and started thinking of all the things I hate... which Ill need Tuesday when I work on my final project for photography, I could use this as my fourth peice. Ill probally post my final project for you all to look at when Im finished with it. Its supposed to be my best work, but its not. O well. Its supposed to be a self portrait... its kind of not. But o well. Amber doesnt need to know any of those details.
about 15 to 30 minutes left, I wish I talked to Tony today. I wish I talked to him so bad, expecially now that Im realizin that I didnt talk to him because now Im making myself feel sick thinking about it. He better talk to me tonight and he better be okay, like I dont want to find out that he didnt answer his phone because something bad happened... thatd suck. *takes deep breath* I dont feel good at all now. Just gave myself a headache too. Argh! I want to be with him so bad.
Hmm, lets see...
I have about 45 minutes left till I leave to go hang out with Sam and go to church. I need to find some new kids to talk to and I need to really think about having something to say in the meeting tonight because Im trying to speak up more and really reach out more. Im trying to climb the religous ladder I suppose... maybe Ill pray tonight, I never pray.
Im going to go get my water from outside.
I havent talked to Cate in a long time.
I wish I had my liscence sometimes because than, time like this where I have about 45 minutes to do nothing, Id be able to go out somewhere and do something for a while.
Apparently Justin doesnt like Paver. Understandable.
Sam and Jenny and I are going to Scotties in Worthington by Jens house, its my first time hanging out with the both of them at the same time. I cant wait but at the same time I still feel sick so I kind of can wait. lol.
I really wish Tony would freaking call me.
My family came home today and claimed I did nothing when I really did a lot and so I was yelling at my sister till she left but when she left she took the cell phone with her which sucks because I wanted to take the cell phone tonight, but I should get it back by 9:30pm or 10pm.
I need someone to talk to, I need something to do.
I hate that my life sucks when Im not busy, I hate that Im not comfertable with having nothing to do and I hate that I dont feel comfertable when Im at home half the time. I hate that I always want someone to be with me, I hate that I cant always have that person thats with me be Tony. I hate the topic of racism, and I hate my final projects. I hate that I dont have a job, but I hate that I cant get one because Im young. I hate that I get taken advantage of, I hate when Im manipulated, I hate when Im lied to. I hate when I feel sick, I hate when Im smiling. I hate when Im indecisive, I hate when Im unsatisfied. I hate when Im arguing, I hate when Im in trouble. I hate when I hurt people, I hate when people hurt me. I hate bugs. I hate pets. I hate walking in freezing rain. I hate the windy when its going my way. I hate the sunset, and I hate that I dont want to hate it. I hate that I dont feel pretty and I hate that I cant sing. I hate that I cant dance. I hate that I hate a lot of things.... sorry somewhere along the way of writing this post, I got lost and started thinking of all the things I hate... which Ill need Tuesday when I work on my final project for photography, I could use this as my fourth peice. Ill probally post my final project for you all to look at when Im finished with it. Its supposed to be my best work, but its not. O well. Its supposed to be a self portrait... its kind of not. But o well. Amber doesnt need to know any of those details.
about 15 to 30 minutes left, I wish I talked to Tony today. I wish I talked to him so bad, expecially now that Im realizin that I didnt talk to him because now Im making myself feel sick thinking about it. He better talk to me tonight and he better be okay, like I dont want to find out that he didnt answer his phone because something bad happened... thatd suck. *takes deep breath* I dont feel good at all now. Just gave myself a headache too. Argh! I want to be with him so bad.