To the Real Ones.
It always makes me wonder when everything seems to take a 180 yet again. Except this time, it seems more real, like it really could last forever. Forever is all how you look at it. Forever to me has been three months and fourteen days. But its the best forever I've had since him. I found out that not everything was I thought it was back then. You think its everything you ever wanted, and then you finally find something more. You realize it was only the nothing that you would never want. But nonetheless... I get scared sometimes. I don't want to find out that it isn't real yet again. It feels so right. The way he touches, the way he moves, the way he makes me feel alive. Yet safe, at the same time. That's something I've never felt before... Alive&safe. It's amazing. It's the late night phone calls, and how he smiles at me, looks me straight in the eye. It's the running his hands through my hair, and how he breathes when I kiss his neck. You wonder time and time again, why you're letting yourself fall. How is this one completely different? But there really is this real feeling in the bottom of my gut, telling me, saying over and over, its okay. Just let it happen. And its happening. And I'm moving with it, and I'm letting it flow, and there's just no stopping it after awhile. And I'm quite happier than I have been in a very long time. So that's supposed to be good. &hearts. Lizi.