The very dangerous truth
Hi, I'm guessing that would be the proper greeting to use when meeting or acknowledging a new personality you encounter. It is definately is the most widely accepted one, I sometimes find it to fall short of the job that I would like it to do, that job being to say "I mean you no harm, I am giving you the respect that I believe an independant being deserves, if you are willing, I propose that equal liking and friendship are possible."
So...Hi^_^.
My name is James -blank- . I was born James -blank-, but as you can see quite clearly that has changed. I am not sure that this matters to you in any way at all but as I have observed it, this change has served to make me less loyal to my name and more tolerent to change within myself.
Metaphoricly speaking
One thing I have noticed about myself is that the ablity to adapt to changing situations is a strong part of my personality, and that's something I like about myself. I have seen and endured many things during my seemingly pointless life and out of the endless mess that litters the path that has lead me to this point in my life I have collected bits and pieces of the things that I like and have tried to make them part of myself. I am a container. Physicly that container is the face, torso, and limbs you see when I am viewed by an individual. Mentaly I think of myself as a house the the out side of which is my body and outer appearance but within are an innumeral amount of interconnected rooms. contained in these rooms are the bits and pieces that I have collected, organized in a way that makes me the most comfortable. Residing within this house is a faceless shapeless entity -not a soul- I say this because as it feels, this thing within me is only an embodyment of the emotion I feel whose essence fills the house entirely.
So here I am within my house collecting and sorting but not as efficent as a computer, things get messy and this leads to confusion and helplessness.Though sometimes the mess makes life seem more fun, never focusing on any one thing and enjoying all the things that make me who I am . But now to the Dangerous part.
I have no conscience.
Some people say this and mean "I've experienced enough in life that whatever situation arises I feel prepared to deal with the result of my actions and am not regretful or laiden with guilt for anything I do."
I say this and mean I can tell the difference between a gain and a loss is for my given situation,(ie. monetary,oppertunities,social advancement etc.);but I lack the ablity to differenciate between right and wrong. Over the years I have gain the knowlegde of what is percived as right and wrong by certain people in certain situations but that is the extent of my ablity to seperate right from profitable. I believe it is a question of moral, or in my case lack there of, immoral, moral, what ever floats your boat as long as it doesn't sink mine. Though I see great purpose in haveing morals present in society they serve to attempt a balance. I don't mind them, some people have less, some people have more, some people are bound by them their entire lives, while others are free of them all together, namely me.
The issue of truth
What is true, what is "the truth"? Everything, nothing the lint ball in between the two and everything else. The truth is subjective, varying greatly between one person to the next what is true to me most likely isn't true to you. If it is then we have something in common and we can make the foundation for a relationship, strong or weak, simple or complex. The people you get along with are the people with which you share a common truth. "The band so-and-so rocks" I agree ... "Hey, wanna get some chinese?" ... yeah I was just thinking that. Ever start a friendship like that? To me the process seems fragile, but I love it, it works so well. These are the people you get along with best, perhaps the best friend you have agrees with you on a bunch of trivial things and some fundamentals like believing in god, or believing in the fact god sucks, or was never there to have sucked in the first place. Sometimes the friends you have don't agree with your fundamentals but you stay friends for the sake of experience you've known them forever and you trust each other whether or not you believe each other to be correct; trust is an important thing and is fragile and hard to come by in large quantites.
Me and truth have issues. Every time a situation like trying to make a friend or tring to remain on good terms with someone arises my brain has a board meeting on what to profess as the truth for that moment. I have noticed that whether or not you know or understand what someone is tring to convey to you, as long you agree with confidence they believe you to be a nice and understanding person. When you do things like this often you become known to different people as different people. Some people think I believe in god some think I worship satan. Some believe me to be introverted while others say I talk too much. While being a person such as this you come upon questions like ...
Who is the real me?
Is it wrong to be this type of person because some people would consider it living lies?
What are the pros and cons of being this type of person?
To me I am all and none I have a personality that behaves like a cameleon changing depending on the social setting but as the "real me" I am a curious person that likes to be different because to me it makes things a bit more interesting, I think that we're all different people behind closed doors and for me it has made it harder to connect with people. If people wore their hearts on there selves than it would be easier to determine who your most like.
As for it being right or wrong I couldn't tell you it's just the person I'm most comfortable being maybe I'm evil because I lie to people, maybe I'm a real nice guy because I try to get along with everyone; its up to the person thinking of the prospect of spending time with me.
A pro to being me is I'm comfortable almost everywhere I am, because I can be like water filling a form. A con would be thats it's hard for people to understand me because I fear that them knowing all my opinions and beliefs would damage the relationship and its difficult for people to trust what they don't understand.
So...Hi^_^.
My name is James -blank- . I was born James -blank-, but as you can see quite clearly that has changed. I am not sure that this matters to you in any way at all but as I have observed it, this change has served to make me less loyal to my name and more tolerent to change within myself.
Metaphoricly speaking
One thing I have noticed about myself is that the ablity to adapt to changing situations is a strong part of my personality, and that's something I like about myself. I have seen and endured many things during my seemingly pointless life and out of the endless mess that litters the path that has lead me to this point in my life I have collected bits and pieces of the things that I like and have tried to make them part of myself. I am a container. Physicly that container is the face, torso, and limbs you see when I am viewed by an individual. Mentaly I think of myself as a house the the out side of which is my body and outer appearance but within are an innumeral amount of interconnected rooms. contained in these rooms are the bits and pieces that I have collected, organized in a way that makes me the most comfortable. Residing within this house is a faceless shapeless entity -not a soul- I say this because as it feels, this thing within me is only an embodyment of the emotion I feel whose essence fills the house entirely.
So here I am within my house collecting and sorting but not as efficent as a computer, things get messy and this leads to confusion and helplessness.Though sometimes the mess makes life seem more fun, never focusing on any one thing and enjoying all the things that make me who I am . But now to the Dangerous part.
I have no conscience.
Some people say this and mean "I've experienced enough in life that whatever situation arises I feel prepared to deal with the result of my actions and am not regretful or laiden with guilt for anything I do."
I say this and mean I can tell the difference between a gain and a loss is for my given situation,(ie. monetary,oppertunities,social advancement etc.);but I lack the ablity to differenciate between right and wrong. Over the years I have gain the knowlegde of what is percived as right and wrong by certain people in certain situations but that is the extent of my ablity to seperate right from profitable. I believe it is a question of moral, or in my case lack there of, immoral, moral, what ever floats your boat as long as it doesn't sink mine. Though I see great purpose in haveing morals present in society they serve to attempt a balance. I don't mind them, some people have less, some people have more, some people are bound by them their entire lives, while others are free of them all together, namely me.
The issue of truth
What is true, what is "the truth"? Everything, nothing the lint ball in between the two and everything else. The truth is subjective, varying greatly between one person to the next what is true to me most likely isn't true to you. If it is then we have something in common and we can make the foundation for a relationship, strong or weak, simple or complex. The people you get along with are the people with which you share a common truth. "The band so-and-so rocks" I agree ... "Hey, wanna get some chinese?" ... yeah I was just thinking that. Ever start a friendship like that? To me the process seems fragile, but I love it, it works so well. These are the people you get along with best, perhaps the best friend you have agrees with you on a bunch of trivial things and some fundamentals like believing in god, or believing in the fact god sucks, or was never there to have sucked in the first place. Sometimes the friends you have don't agree with your fundamentals but you stay friends for the sake of experience you've known them forever and you trust each other whether or not you believe each other to be correct; trust is an important thing and is fragile and hard to come by in large quantites.
Me and truth have issues. Every time a situation like trying to make a friend or tring to remain on good terms with someone arises my brain has a board meeting on what to profess as the truth for that moment. I have noticed that whether or not you know or understand what someone is tring to convey to you, as long you agree with confidence they believe you to be a nice and understanding person. When you do things like this often you become known to different people as different people. Some people think I believe in god some think I worship satan. Some believe me to be introverted while others say I talk too much. While being a person such as this you come upon questions like ...
Who is the real me?
Is it wrong to be this type of person because some people would consider it living lies?
What are the pros and cons of being this type of person?
To me I am all and none I have a personality that behaves like a cameleon changing depending on the social setting but as the "real me" I am a curious person that likes to be different because to me it makes things a bit more interesting, I think that we're all different people behind closed doors and for me it has made it harder to connect with people. If people wore their hearts on there selves than it would be easier to determine who your most like.
As for it being right or wrong I couldn't tell you it's just the person I'm most comfortable being maybe I'm evil because I lie to people, maybe I'm a real nice guy because I try to get along with everyone; its up to the person thinking of the prospect of spending time with me.
A pro to being me is I'm comfortable almost everywhere I am, because I can be like water filling a form. A con would be thats it's hard for people to understand me because I fear that them knowing all my opinions and beliefs would damage the relationship and its difficult for people to trust what they don't understand.