he doesnt deserve to be called dad.

May 30, 2004 12:48

he makes me feel like i don't belong anywhere. like i'm not worthy of breathing his air.. like no matter how wrong he is, he's still right. and what am i supposed to do, when no one's on my side?.. when i'm screaming my head off and people are walking by.. and he makes them just walk by like that. he makes me crazy. i just need to get away from here- some place i can be treated like a human being.. it's absurd that he calls me disrespectful. i've never treated either of them with disrespect in my entire life.. it's just not i'm just not good enough..ever. believe it or not, i do try.. i try so fuckin hard.. to make everyone happy.. to please the world him. i hate it all so much. i pray every night before i go to sleep.. sometimes i just pray i won't wake up. my ears are bleeding me deaf.. i can't take the screaming anymore. my eyes are drying out.. i can't take the crying anymore. you make me hate myself. when i try so hard, only to end up crying even harder. i don't even wana finish this entry.. i give up.
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