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Wow so much shit. I got my schedual for school today...schools in like fuckin 5 days. Im going to shoot myself. Honestly. Im worried i cant make it again. But im going to try my damn hardest. I have atleast one person i like in each of my classes so far. Sept my freshman class. But w/e i need to pay attention in that one anyways. Since i already failed it once. And that was the only class i failed too. KICKASS. Not to damn bad for 97 absenses. But a pain in my ass.
Also 2 people who are VERY important to me might be going to rehab. My mom which is what i need. I need a mom. Someone thats actually there. Realizes im not a roomate. But your only daughter. I love her. But she needs a lot of help. I hate to say it too. she is my mother.
Also one of my best friends. Im not going to say his name. I dont think he needs everyone knowing. But he does need to go. I never looked at it like that untill sumone said it. But im very proud of him. Its hard for him even tho he "Knows" he can do it. I kno its a struggle. But i love him. He means the absolute world to me. And i hope he gets better. I dont kno wut i would do without him.
I sit in the shower crying for hours. The water drowns out my tears. But i know that you can hear me. Why wont you listen. Im just screaming confessions. You dont need to say a damn word. Just understand what im going through. Understand im not that perfect. Im trying to do right. But your doubting pushes me away from good. I cant stand this anymore. Goodbye.