Life is good when your irresponsible
Today was another huge day of irresponsibility... and yet, i do not feel bad about it at all. Life is pretty fucking good. I woke up, watched Gilmore Girls. Went over Kyle's for a little while. Rocked out at the Java Joint. Then i saw justin and said hello and whatnot. Then over to Kevin's where i kicked his ass at So Cal 3 which is fucking awesome because even though i only played against him, he was the best one there at that game. I own I beat him in 3 rounds.
Saturday night i went to go visit megan. Kyle and Jay are prob gonna accompany me next time. Megan and Kyle wanna meet. And Jay is good entertainment. Philly was SO fun... we got very intoxicated. Megan played her first game of beer (vodka) pong ever. We got really fucked up and watched Rainbow Bright. When megan passed out Me, Kyle, and Jay played pictionary online into the weeee hours of the morning. It was pretty fucking entertaining.
Sunday i drove back around 6:30 and went straight to Kyle's. After a while I napped for like 3 hours until around 12:30. Then we talked and hung out and played piano and shit. We went over to Ian's, which is the first time i saw So Cal 3 in the past two days. But i didn't play. Also i met kyle's friend Mike finally. He's nice so far. They are all pretty funny guys.
I need to drop out of school. And move out of my house. Or just figure something else to do that would keep my mom off my back. I don't want to do anything, but what I love. There is the hard part. That isn't usually how middle class life works. I need to start writing again. That could help me find focus. Writing helps me focus. But only if it's not forced. I am still just floating on. Not really sure yet what's going on.
i love you.
"i am heaven sent.
don't you dare forget.
i am all you've ever wanted.
what all the other boys all promised.
sorry i told.
i just needed you to know.
i think in decimals and dollars.
i am the cause to all your problems.
shelter from cold.
we are never alone.
coordinate brain to mouth.
and then ask me what it's like,
to have myself so figured out.
wish i knew."
Saturday night i went to go visit megan. Kyle and Jay are prob gonna accompany me next time. Megan and Kyle wanna meet. And Jay is good entertainment. Philly was SO fun... we got very intoxicated. Megan played her first game of beer (vodka) pong ever. We got really fucked up and watched Rainbow Bright. When megan passed out Me, Kyle, and Jay played pictionary online into the weeee hours of the morning. It was pretty fucking entertaining.
Sunday i drove back around 6:30 and went straight to Kyle's. After a while I napped for like 3 hours until around 12:30. Then we talked and hung out and played piano and shit. We went over to Ian's, which is the first time i saw So Cal 3 in the past two days. But i didn't play. Also i met kyle's friend Mike finally. He's nice so far. They are all pretty funny guys.
I need to drop out of school. And move out of my house. Or just figure something else to do that would keep my mom off my back. I don't want to do anything, but what I love. There is the hard part. That isn't usually how middle class life works. I need to start writing again. That could help me find focus. Writing helps me focus. But only if it's not forced. I am still just floating on. Not really sure yet what's going on.
i love you.
"i am heaven sent.
don't you dare forget.
i am all you've ever wanted.
what all the other boys all promised.
sorry i told.
i just needed you to know.
i think in decimals and dollars.
i am the cause to all your problems.
shelter from cold.
we are never alone.
coordinate brain to mouth.
and then ask me what it's like,
to have myself so figured out.
wish i knew."