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HOLY MOLY! oh my goodness. no one really ever reads my livejournal, so it safe for me to write on here. ok...like my lovely wonderful brother like person +JOSH+ is flipping remarrying his i hoped FOREVER EX FREAKING WIFE!!! i know that he loves her so i must respect it, but its crazy. i love him TO death though. ok. Josh is a phenominal person and i love him to death, i just said that though. its just that hes great and ive known him since he was 8 and i was 4 and like i dont want to see him hurt again. i personally dont think its Gods will that they are together, but eh. i havent prayed about it much bc i know that hes a big boy and can handle it himself. i will miss him being single JOSH bc we chilled all the time and we talked and i got to know him on a brotherlike level and really got to know Josh for Josh. i love that kid. i know he's 21 but hes my bro and i love him. Whatever he choses i love him either way. i dont like danielle bc she doesnt like me, from what ive heard, but shell have to learn to like me bc she really wont have a choice. i stuck with Josh thru all the SHIT!, and i know that he wont just up and leave me because danielle says so. he's a good guy and he knows what is right and he loves his church and he loves too much to let it go for a girl. He knows who his friends are and that we care and all that jazz. but im gonna stop talking about this bc im kinda getting heated. i guess love is BLIND!` ::dustin holds chas back::
ANYWAY: Dustin i love you. i know you do not read my LJ but oh well. i can express my love to you anyway, bc you are great!
well i wonder whats going on. Hm. i wonder what ppl would right about me i didnt have livejournal. like how not on the same level i was. i dont know what is going on but i know that im kinda pissed off bc i dont like what i read on a "wonderful christian girls" lj. i wonder if she even likes me and possibly what negative things she has to say about me. if any, id like to know. i thought she was a terrific person, still kinda do, but wonder all that goes on in her head and how she justifies it. I dont think that lovely little Mary wanting to sing a lead part for her sake of feeling important and singing for God should be taken negativily. blah. maybe im taking it offensivily and i know i shouldnt so ill stop. i just think that ppl shouldnt be so judging. they dont know why Mary wanted to lead sing. it is no ones buisness but hers and Gods why she wanted this and no one else should be concerned. BLAH! this is a church where ppl need to be excepted so we can work together. This is a place of God where we are suppose to go and preach the gospel, not be concerned who sings lead next sunday, or who doesnt for that matter. We need to build eachother up and stay away from strife. Satan is trying to wrk against this youth group and break us up bc we are going to do MIGHTY things fot the kigdom of God. This summer will be a summer of delivernace and the harvest field is going to grow so much and we are going to lead SO MANY PPL to Christ and Satan knows that and hates it so he's trying to take us out no metter what it takes. Silly things like PRIDE and LEVELS OF SPIRITUALITY are getting in the way. i personally could be offended bc i want to be on the youth counsel but am not. ive been going with God since i was flipping 4 but i know that there is a reason Tiff, is there not me, and im not mad. kinda lost, but i know it isnt my time.
I love the person that i talked about earlier but i did kinda get offended at all she wrote on her lj. but im gonna go so like bye bye bye! Dustin, i love you.