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[alone_and_hated]

Things
Most of me constantly just wants to take Kristin and get the fuck away from here
But we dont for SO many reasons
Im finally close with my family
We've been hanging out with Jay and people I actually like a bit recently
But I kind of just want to start over
I big part of me really fucken hates my job right now
But I know I wont quit
at least not now
Weve been staying sober for the most part recently
I guess thats good
The crack was getting worse each time
But sobritay is making me hate my job more

The roomates
Kristin talked to them and they made her feel better
But I tried and I talked to them any it was the same shit
I think we need out
I HATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I had such a bad headach last night
I'm so tired of it

Kristin and I have been doing so great
We woke up early this morning to lay in bed with our kitten and get high before work

I don't know what to think anymore
or what to let go of
I have so little it I have to be careful before I let go of anything even the shittyest shit
Because it wasnt always like that
I just dont feel like that anymore even at work