IF u luv me b careful with my heart; u can take it, just dont break it or my world will fall apart
yep another post...actually i havnt posted anything new in a while...i doubt anyone is reading this anyways...so yeah the other day i left school early with my fren and we went to her house and i took about 5 shots of cruzan rum...drank a beer then got news that her step dad was on his way home so everyone had to leave exceot her because her mom knew she was home early so i had these guys that were there give me a ride home and i had to pay them in change (lol) for gas money so i gave them about 6 dollars in change er i think 6 i was pretty plastered so who knows!?!?!lol well then i called some ppl then passes out in my bathroom threw up passed out some more somehow made it to my bedroom talked to shannon passed out and then woke up and made some more fone calls then passed out till 7 when shannon came over then hung out with shannon,kyle and phil till shannons mom picked us all up and then went and got drunk yet again at shannons then went back to phils house but it was just me,kyle and phil by then and then to donnas house then to kyles and yet again to phils....phils passes out on his bed so me and kyle made a pallet in his bedroom floor and i was pretty sober by then and then me and kyle uh 'messed around' for a bit then decided to go to sleep at about 4 in the morning...but after we had settled down on our pallet and were bout to go to sleep i remembered that my dad was going outta town that morning and would be checkin in my room b4 he left and would be pissed if i wasnt there...it wouldnt have mattered if didnt come home on a regular weekend night but since he was going outta town im expected to be there to say goodbye i guess so i had to get up and ruin the 'mood' b/c it was the FIRST night me and kyle could actually sleep in the SAME bed (or 'pallet') and i had to leave!!!i was so pissed especially because i was pretty damn comfortable laying there in his arms bout to fall asleep!!!!!GRRR im still pissed!well then i got up and he walked me home and i figured he was going back to phils but i guess not because when i woke up i called phils and phil asked if me and kyle left and went to kyles that night after phil went to sleep and i said no why and he was like because i woke up and yall were gone and i said oh well i had to leave and i explained why and then i said well i thought kyle went back to phils but he said he didnt so i called kyles and sure enough he had went home after he walked me home so i guess he had only been staying at phils that night because of me <3 and since i wasnt there he went home... but i couldnt confirm this because he was still sleep when i called and so i told his dad to tell him i called...then i went back to sleep untill about 1 then i got up and had to get my stuff together so i could come to my grandmas and see my bro but when i got here i learned my bro was about to leave and go to a concert in dallas then to a keg party!!!!!i wanted to go but my grandma says im to young...if only she knew that i already drink!aw well its all cool i stayed here and rented movies and read magizines and hung out with the grandparents...havnt done that in a while so its cool........but yeah i guess im gonna go...oh wait just a lil update...things are looking up...me and shannon r cool again,im back at school, and the whole body image thing...well im gaining my weight back and me and christi are working out together and tanning everyday after school and i asked kyle if he likes my body better now since im gaining back my weight and he said it doesnt matter as long as i like it and that really made me happy because i was really worried about that!!!!!!!!!!!goodness things r better........i hope they stay this way!!!!