life
Life seems just...worthless...I feel worthless..School is worthless...anything i do i just feel is worthless. Nothing seems to be going right for me really..Im losing my best freind...i got into a play but dont do anything..I am FAILING a class...I DONT FAIL!...Not even my LUNCHES go right!!..i was excited for lunch today..the one break of my day..but no..Mr.Aukerman decideds to give us a TEST. a PARTNER test. guess who didnt have a partner?! ME. so of course i just failed my history test and im failing the class..and i didnt even get to go to the right lunch! the one exciting part of my fucking lame DAY! Rehersal..thats just torture like it has been for the past month.
i know i sound like a whiny brat but honestly nothing is really going right...Six Flags was okay..it was fun at some parts but not fully. and i spent way too much time at mattys..wich i regret.
i just want to sit and hug someone and maybe be held for a lil while cuz i need a nice good hug.
School and anywhere other than home i just have to smile and be.. "happy" but slight times am i actually happy. maybe worknight will be okay...not that it has been. Maybe i could convince Dave to come if he isnt busy..now thats something i could use.
Not many people actually talk to me nowadays..and i think its cuz of Matty...and i dont like it. i wanna be included with everything again. i think i need a good concert to go to. Anberlin..story of the year..amber pacific? a band i like...so i can just be free. yeah..thats what i need. and maybe im just sexually frustrated. lately ive just wanted someone..i wouldnt care too much. just that want feeling to have someone in my arms..yeah..i dunno. i guess ill go now.
I still love him with all my heart. He will always be in my heart. no matter what. Love You hun.
i know i sound like a whiny brat but honestly nothing is really going right...Six Flags was okay..it was fun at some parts but not fully. and i spent way too much time at mattys..wich i regret.
i just want to sit and hug someone and maybe be held for a lil while cuz i need a nice good hug.
School and anywhere other than home i just have to smile and be.. "happy" but slight times am i actually happy. maybe worknight will be okay...not that it has been. Maybe i could convince Dave to come if he isnt busy..now thats something i could use.
Not many people actually talk to me nowadays..and i think its cuz of Matty...and i dont like it. i wanna be included with everything again. i think i need a good concert to go to. Anberlin..story of the year..amber pacific? a band i like...so i can just be free. yeah..thats what i need. and maybe im just sexually frustrated. lately ive just wanted someone..i wouldnt care too much. just that want feeling to have someone in my arms..yeah..i dunno. i guess ill go now.
I still love him with all my heart. He will always be in my heart. no matter what. Love You hun.