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ya know im REALLY hateing matty because its mostly her fault ive almost lost the one important thin g in my entire LIFE. my BEST FREIND. and if i lose him i will surely not speak to matty and therefore...GUESS WHAT! JULIE LOST ALL 3 BEST FREINDS WITHIN 5 MONTHS!!! thats gotta take great fuckin skill. i truly HATE myself right now. i knew i should of been hanging out with dave wen i was with matty. but she just showed up and took me. things are so stressed out lately. i just feel like im not even part of daves life anymore. i made a song for him i made a poster for him..but hes mad at me and i cant give them to him :-( i want him to tell me somthing he has yet so say ANYTHING about. i will wait.
Last night i was taken home in a police car.their very uncomfortable. My dad forgot to pick me up and i started walking home at 9:30 from the school. I had 2 bags full of 27 movies and a bag of my clothes from mattys and my shoes and 2 notebooks and 2 textbooks to carry PLUS my backpack. if i took my trumpet home..i would of shot myself. but i got to farfars and realized the handle on the clothes bag ripped so i had a MAJOR freak/crying attack cuz i thought i lost the hat dave gave me.. i went looking for it and i couldnt find it. i was miserable. my arms hurt and i got to about the 2nd street after the lights wen the bottom of the bag broke. so this made it even harder to carry things. by this point you had a weeping for their daddy teenager trying their best to walk down the street. at about 11 i got to the street just before the split to the police station and a policeman came up behind me. i didnt know it cuz it weas dark out and all i could see was headlights and hear a dog barking.. "are you okay" "yeah" "where you coming from? "the high school" "okay...*into his shoulder thingy* we got a 776 copy 776" (i asked the stupidest question in the world) "are you a policeman?" "yes. the uniform didnt give it away?" "i cant see sorry." so then a lady police officer came and picked me up. i got home at 11:30 and i realized that all i had left of my clothing was my sweater. My arms were sore my feet hurt. i couldnt move barely. i cried and yelled and fell asleep. at midnight.
i am now missing my pants,socks and underwear. thankfully i got my shirt on the way to school. no sign of my other clothes. which sux.This is turning out to be one HORRIBLE year.
I got home from school and i wasnt going to speak to my father and he was outside with aurora. aurora was giving the biggest smile ive ever seen wen i came walking up from the bus..and i could only see that smile for a second before i looked awy and walked into the house. next thing i hear are ear piercing screams as i step into the house. i felt so bad but i didnt want to talk to my dad.
i went to the variety show tonight to see colleen and jenna. they were wicked awesome. AND omg RILEY was hillarious and awesome!!! he did saterday night fever and he was AWESOME!!! Anna was funny too.
well..gonna go sulk in my misery for now. maybe tomorrow will be better. im hanging out with Hannah.
bye bye for now.
Last night i was taken home in a police car.their very uncomfortable. My dad forgot to pick me up and i started walking home at 9:30 from the school. I had 2 bags full of 27 movies and a bag of my clothes from mattys and my shoes and 2 notebooks and 2 textbooks to carry PLUS my backpack. if i took my trumpet home..i would of shot myself. but i got to farfars and realized the handle on the clothes bag ripped so i had a MAJOR freak/crying attack cuz i thought i lost the hat dave gave me.. i went looking for it and i couldnt find it. i was miserable. my arms hurt and i got to about the 2nd street after the lights wen the bottom of the bag broke. so this made it even harder to carry things. by this point you had a weeping for their daddy teenager trying their best to walk down the street. at about 11 i got to the street just before the split to the police station and a policeman came up behind me. i didnt know it cuz it weas dark out and all i could see was headlights and hear a dog barking.. "are you okay" "yeah" "where you coming from? "the high school" "okay...*into his shoulder thingy* we got a 776 copy 776" (i asked the stupidest question in the world) "are you a policeman?" "yes. the uniform didnt give it away?" "i cant see sorry." so then a lady police officer came and picked me up. i got home at 11:30 and i realized that all i had left of my clothing was my sweater. My arms were sore my feet hurt. i couldnt move barely. i cried and yelled and fell asleep. at midnight.
i am now missing my pants,socks and underwear. thankfully i got my shirt on the way to school. no sign of my other clothes. which sux.This is turning out to be one HORRIBLE year.
I got home from school and i wasnt going to speak to my father and he was outside with aurora. aurora was giving the biggest smile ive ever seen wen i came walking up from the bus..and i could only see that smile for a second before i looked awy and walked into the house. next thing i hear are ear piercing screams as i step into the house. i felt so bad but i didnt want to talk to my dad.
i went to the variety show tonight to see colleen and jenna. they were wicked awesome. AND omg RILEY was hillarious and awesome!!! he did saterday night fever and he was AWESOME!!! Anna was funny too.
well..gonna go sulk in my misery for now. maybe tomorrow will be better. im hanging out with Hannah.
bye bye for now.