Thinking...
What do you do when you feel like you have hit the bottom? Common teenagers say well suicide is an option, paint your eyes to grey so to speak. But I do not know I feel above that in a way, I have never really thought about committing suicide except when I lived in Tucson and had no friends and nobody to talk to except this damn machine, this fucken contraption that slowly eats me away. So I was living in Tucson and I felt like I had enough of the bullshit, and you know there are those that think about suicide but never really get the guts to do it...Well I was at the end of my rope and I tried too.
It was the clichBathtub, dropping a blowdryer into it. Well I plugged the blowdryer into the outlet above the sink, put on my led zeppelin shirt and a pair of ripped jeans and I got in the filled bathtub while holding the blow dryer. I turned on my favorite band at the time Slipknot and as I dropped the blowdryer into the bathtub the power goes out and the blowdryer hits the water and just slightly tingles the hairs on my entire body. It was on the news, some drunk driver ran into a pole and it killed the generators thus turning out the power, so Im thinking this was a sign, and I guess it was because I found a new appreciation I guess after that, and although I might be depressed at point and times It can never be that bad because I can always just write about it and talk to a friend.
It was the clichBathtub, dropping a blowdryer into it. Well I plugged the blowdryer into the outlet above the sink, put on my led zeppelin shirt and a pair of ripped jeans and I got in the filled bathtub while holding the blow dryer. I turned on my favorite band at the time Slipknot and as I dropped the blowdryer into the bathtub the power goes out and the blowdryer hits the water and just slightly tingles the hairs on my entire body. It was on the news, some drunk driver ran into a pole and it killed the generators thus turning out the power, so Im thinking this was a sign, and I guess it was because I found a new appreciation I guess after that, and although I might be depressed at point and times It can never be that bad because I can always just write about it and talk to a friend.