Again
Why can't i open up to people? I had no idea that that was the problem with my last crush. My best friend told me he said that he would always have to start the conversation...i don't know why i'm like that!!! It bothers me so much! There's only one person i can open up to and that's my other best friend. It makes me sad to think that people would lose interest in me. ( that's what my other Best friend said.)
I have this wall up. I didn't realize it was there untill today. Well, last night when this whole thing went on. I'm afraid to let people see who i really am. It saddens me to think this, but i think i could actually live my life alone. I know i probably couldn't but right now, i feel like there's no one i truly need. Not even my parents. Up unitll last night, i thought i needed (N), but i don't know anymore. He says sometimes he likes me and other times he thinks of me as a best friend.
I thought i finally found someone who likes me for me. Someone who would put me before all other girls. But i know this guy...i know how many girlfriends he's had, and that he calls girls all the time. For a while, i thought i was special. That i was his only one. That for the first time in my life someone loved me back and i would be with them. Why don't things ever work out for me!? It drives me so crazy!!
~alohaMANGO
I have this wall up. I didn't realize it was there untill today. Well, last night when this whole thing went on. I'm afraid to let people see who i really am. It saddens me to think this, but i think i could actually live my life alone. I know i probably couldn't but right now, i feel like there's no one i truly need. Not even my parents. Up unitll last night, i thought i needed (N), but i don't know anymore. He says sometimes he likes me and other times he thinks of me as a best friend.
I thought i finally found someone who likes me for me. Someone who would put me before all other girls. But i know this guy...i know how many girlfriends he's had, and that he calls girls all the time. For a while, i thought i was special. That i was his only one. That for the first time in my life someone loved me back and i would be with them. Why don't things ever work out for me!? It drives me so crazy!!
~alohaMANGO