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i never thought something i wanted so much would hurt so bad. babycakes? i miss you. i hope you're having the time of your life! it's so weird. i'm so ready to move on, but at the same time it's just impossible to move away. and this waiting period really aint helping out too much. there's so much i could be doing, so much i should be doing... but i'm just wasting it away, aren't i? blah blah blah bitch bitch bitch my heart aint in it. highlights of the week? sunday and monday! woooooot!!!! talking late/hanging out with ppl i haven't seen in forever. and my daddy calling me "depressed". apparently when you sleep a lot randomly it means you're depressed? hahaha oh man. too bad it was too accurate. i'm looking for new sheets/bedding, etc. any suggestions? they're so freaking expensive...
and all i want is so freaking unreasonable that i just want to kick myself for dreaming. it feels like someone's sitting on my chest it is just that hard to breathe.
anyway. i cannot wait to move in. i'm so excited. ucsb is going to be amazing. and a lot of my friends are living really close to me it's so great. there's so much to do i was looking at the seminars and stuff if any other ucsb kid would be down for taking on with me on tuesdays or thursdays lemme know!
happy birthday to one of my first real best friends. it's odd to see the people and memories we toss into our past... oh well you haven't been forgotten.
sorry for anyone who's actually read this. i just needed to get some things off my chest.
goodnight.
and all i want is so freaking unreasonable that i just want to kick myself for dreaming. it feels like someone's sitting on my chest it is just that hard to breathe.
anyway. i cannot wait to move in. i'm so excited. ucsb is going to be amazing. and a lot of my friends are living really close to me it's so great. there's so much to do i was looking at the seminars and stuff if any other ucsb kid would be down for taking on with me on tuesdays or thursdays lemme know!
happy birthday to one of my first real best friends. it's odd to see the people and memories we toss into our past... oh well you haven't been forgotten.
sorry for anyone who's actually read this. i just needed to get some things off my chest.
goodnight.