wow.
ok, so i know it has been forever since i wrote in her but why the hell not? ive cme to realize this past year who my real friends are and who i can count on. my brother has come to disappoint me very much so and no one will understand..he just drops his family now and its so not like him. with my grandma dying, my aunt having cancer, my brother changing , my mom being diagnosed with fibro mialga ( sp), and me having surgery really opened my eyes to life as weird as that sounds. i changed my major completely to pre med pediatric oncology. im crazy i know, but i just really want to help kids and youn adults fight through. after josh died, it really inspired me to help. ( that sounded harsh but you know what i mean ) people think im fine but im really not sometimes. i just deal. my true friends are awesome and i thank everyday for them. my boyfriend is a sweetheart and does not pressure me for anything. he cares. thats all i care about. my three closest friends are away at college and i miss them very much so. jen kourt and nessa please come home. haha. i really think i can trust them with my life and i thank them for that. i am so glad i finally grew up, things are much nicer. and by the way, my job blows. ok im done for now.. bye!!