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I went out in the woods yesterday, so that I could think. I was thinking about a lot of things, but mainly feelings. I was trying to explain it to Gwenith later, and the conversation went something like:
Me: "I can't understand these feelings of never being good enough. It seems that as hard as I try I never feel like I am really there. I guess you might call it...inadequacy?"
Gwenith: "You shouldn't feel like that. You, of all people, shouldn't feel like you are lacking anything."
Me: "woe, I wasn't looking for a pep talk. I wasn't telling you so that you would tell me I am not. I don't want you to tell me that my feelings are irrational; I was trying to figure out why I have these feelings, when I know they are irrational."
Gwenith: "Oh..." *silence*
Why did this situation occur? Why is it that as soon as someone starts talking about themselves in a negative light, even if just musing, that everyone else always jumps to cheer up/conformation mode? I guess the real question is, why do people talk themselves down knowing that everyone else will talk them up? We are a bunch of self-centered hypocrits.
In the real world...Gwenith and I went exploring last night. I had no idea there was so much national forest in Dahlonega. We took my sister's car up Nimblewill Gap and up the mountain behind it, which I am assuming is Springer Mountain. Almost killed the car. But it really was just beautiful.
Me: "I can't understand these feelings of never being good enough. It seems that as hard as I try I never feel like I am really there. I guess you might call it...inadequacy?"
Gwenith: "You shouldn't feel like that. You, of all people, shouldn't feel like you are lacking anything."
Me: "woe, I wasn't looking for a pep talk. I wasn't telling you so that you would tell me I am not. I don't want you to tell me that my feelings are irrational; I was trying to figure out why I have these feelings, when I know they are irrational."
Gwenith: "Oh..." *silence*
Why did this situation occur? Why is it that as soon as someone starts talking about themselves in a negative light, even if just musing, that everyone else always jumps to cheer up/conformation mode? I guess the real question is, why do people talk themselves down knowing that everyone else will talk them up? We are a bunch of self-centered hypocrits.
In the real world...Gwenith and I went exploring last night. I had no idea there was so much national forest in Dahlonega. We took my sister's car up Nimblewill Gap and up the mountain behind it, which I am assuming is Springer Mountain. Almost killed the car. But it really was just beautiful.