Cause there's only one way
It's incredible how long certain assignments take for me to finish. While most wait until the day before something is due to start and finish it, I always start things ahead of time. I think I'm finally done with this essay on Emerson's Fate . Although it isn't exactly the greatest essay, I've worked on it for too much time and now every word seems to just run together. At least I know this fact about myself. My psychotic perfectionism. I can work always work on it, right? People say you can work on your faults, but I think in the end, no one really changes. Your character is as much a part of you as your natural hair color. Granted, people do change, but so does everything and eveyone else. Our existence is full of change. Certain circumstances bring about the change. And change is a good thing, I suppose. Except that I, like so many others, fear change at times.
All right. Everything I just typed is rubbish, and makes absolutely no sense at all, so disregard it. I liked that I didn't come home right after school today. I'm so used to having a club/sport/rehearsal or other obligation. If I don't have any of the former, I usually go straight to the gym or do my homework. I guess it's a discipline thing. That's why I love summer so much. It's my only chance to laze about and do nothing. Of course that gets old. But it's still nice.
But I'm ready for winter. The snow was actually quite spectacular on the drive to school this morning. We had to drive about 15 mph, so I really got the chance to look at it. The very first snowfall. The sky was overcast but there was a hue of red on the horizon. It looked really beautiful. I felt more appreciative after seeing it.
Another thing I never really understood is emotion. I'm an extremely emotional person. I wear them on my sleeve. But I can be private too. It's funny how one minute you loathe your father and want the cruelest fires of hell to swallow him up. Then later, you love him to death again. And how some people hold on to things forever. Like grudges. My thought is, move on, get over it, life is short. Simply stated. You can't give up a friendship or a love over the small, petty things in life. I believe in second chances.
I miss concerts and musicals. I was thinking the other day about how amazing it was to see Rent on Broadway. And to be so close to the stage. Or hearing Guster at UNH. I'm an absolute sap for musicals and concerts (that are calm). I've gorwn out of my dream to perform up on stage. It's only a hobby now. But I will always remain loving it.
All right. Everything I just typed is rubbish, and makes absolutely no sense at all, so disregard it. I liked that I didn't come home right after school today. I'm so used to having a club/sport/rehearsal or other obligation. If I don't have any of the former, I usually go straight to the gym or do my homework. I guess it's a discipline thing. That's why I love summer so much. It's my only chance to laze about and do nothing. Of course that gets old. But it's still nice.
But I'm ready for winter. The snow was actually quite spectacular on the drive to school this morning. We had to drive about 15 mph, so I really got the chance to look at it. The very first snowfall. The sky was overcast but there was a hue of red on the horizon. It looked really beautiful. I felt more appreciative after seeing it.
Another thing I never really understood is emotion. I'm an extremely emotional person. I wear them on my sleeve. But I can be private too. It's funny how one minute you loathe your father and want the cruelest fires of hell to swallow him up. Then later, you love him to death again. And how some people hold on to things forever. Like grudges. My thought is, move on, get over it, life is short. Simply stated. You can't give up a friendship or a love over the small, petty things in life. I believe in second chances.
I miss concerts and musicals. I was thinking the other day about how amazing it was to see Rent on Broadway. And to be so close to the stage. Or hearing Guster at UNH. I'm an absolute sap for musicals and concerts (that are calm). I've gorwn out of my dream to perform up on stage. It's only a hobby now. But I will always remain loving it.