i'm sure every school has it's downfalls....however....
i'm quickly losing it today. i've been incredibly bi-polar all week. last night at the diner and this morning in class i couldn't stop laughing about nothing and now i'm like ridiculously fed up with everything. i'm so so ready to move on from here. i'm tired of this job. i really really am. i'm tired of waking up every morning after having been woken up several times during the night and nearly stepping in some huge disgusting mess. my residents literally scatter bits of food around the floor that they have already chewed on. they are like un-housetrained puppies and i am stunned by the fact that a lot of them are still here though i write them up every week for one thing or another. and it's not even like i try to write people up, most of the time i'm just walking by and they are doing something so retarded that i have to wonder how they passed preschool, much less got into a 4 year institution. and yet at the same time, i lock myself in my room constantly to do work and i am still not getting stellar grades. how are they surviving and i am not?
i just don't understand. and i'm seriously strung out doing shit for this building all the time even though i get zero support and people like shannon have the audacity to come to the HR meeting yesterday and imply that other people are not doing their jobs. she took it upon herself this weekend to go around the each building and see if the RA listed was actually on duty and doing a good job. what a fucking freak show. people SHIT on the floor of reed and she finds it necessary to critque others handling of their buildings!? whatever, go back to wedding planning shannon..i.e. the pinnacle of your existance since i'm sure being married to your boyfriend who has already cheated on you with members of both sexes AND made a porno video about it will be very fulfilling.
grrrrrrrr. so many people at this school are uptight about things that don't matter and shrug off the things that do. i'm so so so so sick of it. i would be eager to graduate if i had a place to go. but i don't. my mother hates me and i don't have a job. so i can't live on my own. this. sucks. a lot.
i have so much to do this month i can't even wrap my brain around it. nor do i want to.
i just don't understand. and i'm seriously strung out doing shit for this building all the time even though i get zero support and people like shannon have the audacity to come to the HR meeting yesterday and imply that other people are not doing their jobs. she took it upon herself this weekend to go around the each building and see if the RA listed was actually on duty and doing a good job. what a fucking freak show. people SHIT on the floor of reed and she finds it necessary to critque others handling of their buildings!? whatever, go back to wedding planning shannon..i.e. the pinnacle of your existance since i'm sure being married to your boyfriend who has already cheated on you with members of both sexes AND made a porno video about it will be very fulfilling.
grrrrrrrr. so many people at this school are uptight about things that don't matter and shrug off the things that do. i'm so so so so sick of it. i would be eager to graduate if i had a place to go. but i don't. my mother hates me and i don't have a job. so i can't live on my own. this. sucks. a lot.
i have so much to do this month i can't even wrap my brain around it. nor do i want to.