reflections on an unorthodox 4 years
i guess when i come to the end of something i always relfect on what i should have done differently. if i had it to do all over again there are a lot of things i would change, most notably coming up with a POA for after graduation much earlier than i did, but some stuff was truly fantastic about the past 4 years.
freshman year= i met a lot of the people with whom i still love extremely much. i had a fantastic roomate and managed to recover at least partially from 18 years stuck in dayton, maine. i went to China that summer which opened my eyes a lot to how the world really is.
sophmore year= i LOVED beign an RA in hass, my residents I still think are great people. i loved my staff that year too and still talk with them regularly. i got to be the spanish service scholar, so i made a ton of money and got to play with little mexican kids all year and design a program for them that summer. became really interested in immigration policy and got to live in the blue house with dave and christine for 2 months. really one of the most fun summers. i also did a lot with the phoenix project that year.
junior year= spain. met some amazing amazing people and saw a lot of europe and morrocco. life changing. mexico if possible was even more life changing and from working in the orphanage and meeting influential people ii really learned a lot abotu what's important in life. this was also the semester that things really started between luke and i. that following summer was fantastic with the apartment in portland and nanny-ing. exhausting, but really worth it.
senior year= no sleep. my job has a tendency to suck the life and energy out of me but despite my whining it's been worth it for a few things. saving lives is always important, and learning how to manage a staff and motivate them through continual stress we are all facing by living in here has turned me into a fairly capable person as far as management and administration. it's super difficult, but pressured me to grow up. some of the more emergency based things make me feel like something good has come out of my experience with gregory dying. if i can prevent even one situation like that, then it's been worth it. also traveling to colorado and st thomas was amazing fun. despite all the struggles luke and i have had this year i think we've come out of it more committed to each other than ever. even if we don't always realize it. we've gone through things that have prepared us for something long term. job searching has not been extremely productive but its forced me to rely a little bit more on people which i've never been good at and also i think i need to be knocked off of my pedestal a little sometimes, so i guess it's good that people aren't jumping out of their chairs to hire me because it forces me to really look at what i want.
so yeah, i've got some regrets, but i think every does. for now i need to put them behind me and try to live the best life i can from here on out. hopefully with the people i love most in the universe.
freshman year= i met a lot of the people with whom i still love extremely much. i had a fantastic roomate and managed to recover at least partially from 18 years stuck in dayton, maine. i went to China that summer which opened my eyes a lot to how the world really is.
sophmore year= i LOVED beign an RA in hass, my residents I still think are great people. i loved my staff that year too and still talk with them regularly. i got to be the spanish service scholar, so i made a ton of money and got to play with little mexican kids all year and design a program for them that summer. became really interested in immigration policy and got to live in the blue house with dave and christine for 2 months. really one of the most fun summers. i also did a lot with the phoenix project that year.
junior year= spain. met some amazing amazing people and saw a lot of europe and morrocco. life changing. mexico if possible was even more life changing and from working in the orphanage and meeting influential people ii really learned a lot abotu what's important in life. this was also the semester that things really started between luke and i. that following summer was fantastic with the apartment in portland and nanny-ing. exhausting, but really worth it.
senior year= no sleep. my job has a tendency to suck the life and energy out of me but despite my whining it's been worth it for a few things. saving lives is always important, and learning how to manage a staff and motivate them through continual stress we are all facing by living in here has turned me into a fairly capable person as far as management and administration. it's super difficult, but pressured me to grow up. some of the more emergency based things make me feel like something good has come out of my experience with gregory dying. if i can prevent even one situation like that, then it's been worth it. also traveling to colorado and st thomas was amazing fun. despite all the struggles luke and i have had this year i think we've come out of it more committed to each other than ever. even if we don't always realize it. we've gone through things that have prepared us for something long term. job searching has not been extremely productive but its forced me to rely a little bit more on people which i've never been good at and also i think i need to be knocked off of my pedestal a little sometimes, so i guess it's good that people aren't jumping out of their chairs to hire me because it forces me to really look at what i want.
so yeah, i've got some regrets, but i think every does. for now i need to put them behind me and try to live the best life i can from here on out. hopefully with the people i love most in the universe.