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im staying home with the kids. i didnt go to lauarlyns, but i called her and got the machine. and i didnt go anywhere with autumn either. i felt like staying home all night so i guess i am. and im just feeling kind of down. it started in the morning and now im just feeling down for some reason and i dont feel like talking. but writting is different, isnt it? there arent winn dixies in every state which i never thought about, but i think its kind of weird that in california they cant go down the street to the winn dixie. i feel like listening to music and just writing. i dunno how long this is going to go on for. maybe not long. i have to teach my dads sunday school lesson tomorrow because he is leaving for somewhere. i never know where my dad goes. and i cant ever figure out why i feel down whenever i feel down. i just feel down sometimes and i cant help it and i feel selfish because i cant think of a reason to feel down. and i feel lonely and i just want to be alone and im jsut complaining on live journal because its just something to fill time and let me vent or do soemthing so that i can just be doing anything other than just sit. i ate alone tonight and i enjoyed the silence. i do enjoy silence. or just music. sometimes i dont care to hear people talk or to talk to people at all and this is one of those times. im bored but i dont feel like going out. i think its kind of strange and im the one who feels that way. i dunno. its all just jumbled up in my head. my dad is going to dallas tomorrow.
and maybe:
lets hope i do this right
and maybe tonight i wont be alone
lets hope that this time i wont be wrong
and maybe it will work
maybe this time my heart wont bleed like an open wound
and i wont need a surgeon to patch me up
maybe maybe maybe some time i wont be scared to ask you the things im dying to ask you
and maybe this will mean something
maybe it will be real
and maybe there will be no more maybes
so i hope i do this right
and i hope it blow up in my face like a premature gernade
and maybe i will give you my heart
and you can take it if you feel so inclined
and maybe maybes will stop
and maybe when they do this will be great.
and maybe:
lets hope i do this right
and maybe tonight i wont be alone
lets hope that this time i wont be wrong
and maybe it will work
maybe this time my heart wont bleed like an open wound
and i wont need a surgeon to patch me up
maybe maybe maybe some time i wont be scared to ask you the things im dying to ask you
and maybe this will mean something
maybe it will be real
and maybe there will be no more maybes
so i hope i do this right
and i hope it blow up in my face like a premature gernade
and maybe i will give you my heart
and you can take it if you feel so inclined
and maybe maybes will stop
and maybe when they do this will be great.