Feb 14, 2006 21:32
I am still in shock, and I still have no idea how to handle this. I just switch from being completely numb to an absolute mess. It was so weird/horrible being at school today. It is so depressing watching all of her best friends trying to just get through the day. It was so quiet. This is all too surreal. It doesn't seem possible. How could such a beautiful person, inside and out, just be gone? Just like that. It doesn't make any sense, and I guess it never will.
Ellese, you didn't know it, but i admired you. I always noticed you at school, and I am happy that i got to spend that one night with you after Homecoming. However, I would have loved to have known you better. You have made such an impact on so many people, and you are loved dearly. It deeply saddens me that you are no longer here with us, but it also makes me happy that you are up in the sky watching over us free from pain and suffering.
Today was hard, but tomorrow will be so much harder.