TOO BEAUTIFUL TO LOSE
i got your call at 4:29 am you pleaded for me to make it easier and to just say i love you back. i do so i did. i couldnt do anything i mean i have called crying wanting to hear the same things but then i again i have waited up at night wondering why you hadnt come by yet and why you didnt love me like my birthday and our 5th anniversary you know the one where you fucked that whore or christamas or valentines or night after night when you were with that 15 year old ... yea ... i have waited up so many nights for you austin shaw i love you i do but it made me ever so sad that you have become so desperate already you are trying to convince your self that i ever meant anything to you. its kinda funny though that i got your call just an hour after i got that stupid comment about being envious. im sorry you are going to the navy. but maybe if you change and you become a better person i could be in love again. thats a feeling i wish i could deny but now that i have let it in i am addicted its a blood splattered battle but i cant hardly wait. you are the drug i will always be addicted to. do not become so desperate yet you are oh so attractive there are plenty of cute girls to plow over yet i love you i love you i love you i do but dont come back to me until you are who you use to be. try to call me everyday i want to keep in touch while you are away maybe that will prove how much you really think of me
by the way thank you so much for what you said i only treated you so good because i see the beauty in you underneith all the confusion. it meant alot to me that you know that i gave you everything i had and some. please take care of yourself i love you baby