So this is youth
I don't know if it's that I'm really very bored, or depressed or both. I'm sorry for being such a downer, really I am. I didn't let anyone down who am I kidding.
The downside of human relationships is that you must be consistent. Or else.
The ultimate paradox I am faced with at the moment is that while looking for a simple answer, I have failed to notice that it is all the neat packages and predictabilites in life that tend to get me down. Or have been getting me down.
All I do all day is read and study vocabulary and play guitar. Most days I don't put on pants or a shirt until 6 or 630. I try to wake up at a reasonable hour and go to sleep at a reasonable hour just so I stay in tune. I try to drink a lot of orange juice becase Vitamin C builds strong bones.
I really can't go on like this for too much longer. Like I really think I might start going to places an offering to work for free. No, actually that won't happen. But I really can't go on like this. It's terrible. And it's making me think a little too much and its making my cynical. Maybe that Philly trip was ultimatley a bad thing. Abberations in my schedule like that make me realize how sad most of the other days are.
I think I have practice tommorow. That would be good becase it will be something to do. whoopee.
I've never really considered myself a social person. I like to go out and be with social people, and I'm certainly not the quietest in the group by a long shot, and I like to rock out to loud music and stuff like that, but I know that ultimatley, I'm an awkard guy to be around for most of you. And I'm alright with that as long as you are. I just want to apologize if I've ever made anybody uncomfortable.
If anyone comments in relation to the above, I will not read it.
And I'm not assuming anyone would, because that is pretty damn arrogant.
The downside of human relationships is that you must be consistent. Or else.
The ultimate paradox I am faced with at the moment is that while looking for a simple answer, I have failed to notice that it is all the neat packages and predictabilites in life that tend to get me down. Or have been getting me down.
All I do all day is read and study vocabulary and play guitar. Most days I don't put on pants or a shirt until 6 or 630. I try to wake up at a reasonable hour and go to sleep at a reasonable hour just so I stay in tune. I try to drink a lot of orange juice becase Vitamin C builds strong bones.
I really can't go on like this for too much longer. Like I really think I might start going to places an offering to work for free. No, actually that won't happen. But I really can't go on like this. It's terrible. And it's making me think a little too much and its making my cynical. Maybe that Philly trip was ultimatley a bad thing. Abberations in my schedule like that make me realize how sad most of the other days are.
I think I have practice tommorow. That would be good becase it will be something to do. whoopee.
I've never really considered myself a social person. I like to go out and be with social people, and I'm certainly not the quietest in the group by a long shot, and I like to rock out to loud music and stuff like that, but I know that ultimatley, I'm an awkard guy to be around for most of you. And I'm alright with that as long as you are. I just want to apologize if I've ever made anybody uncomfortable.
If anyone comments in relation to the above, I will not read it.
And I'm not assuming anyone would, because that is pretty damn arrogant.