if this aint but a shame...
ok i've almost had enough of this BS. being lonely is bad for ur health. i hate the fact that i NEED somebody. idk y i am this way but for some reason i NEED to be loved and needed and cared for. i NEED to be somebody's boo. i NEED that attention that u get from a relationship...or even just talking to someone. this is the longest i have gone w/o having a "boyfriend" or talking to someone....and it hasnt even been that long! it's like im addicted to the attention that i get from a guy. and now im going through widthdrawl. do u know how long it's been since i've been cuddled, kissed, and snuggled? i dont either cause it's been just that long. it seems like forever since i just went over a guys house and watched movies and chilled.
precious and emily are right. there are different kinds of hoes and im an attention hoe. i need that special attention that u only get from guys and i need to give that attention to guys that they can only get from a girl. i need relationship of some sort. as much as i tried to deny it when people would say it...i did talk to a freaking lot of people in 2005. i made a list (cause i was bored) of the people i talked to in 2005 and there was 17. 17 gosh darn people. omg that's ridiculous!! yea i didnt do anything with them and some of them only lasted like a week or two if that...but still that's 17 guys. SEVENTEEN! who does that? some people dont even talk to 17 people in there whole 4 years of high school and i did in a year. and the year aint even done yet. wtf?!?! that's nasty and im a tad bit more than ashamed.
but i guess i did that b/c i was looking for "that guy". the one who i was supposed to be with. the one who swept me off my feet. the only problem was that i never found him. so i kept looking...in all the wrong places obviously. and here i am...alone...still. but at least i know now that it's not smart to talk to everyone who shows interest in hope of him being that guy for me. so i am making some progress right?
precious and emily are right. there are different kinds of hoes and im an attention hoe. i need that special attention that u only get from guys and i need to give that attention to guys that they can only get from a girl. i need relationship of some sort. as much as i tried to deny it when people would say it...i did talk to a freaking lot of people in 2005. i made a list (cause i was bored) of the people i talked to in 2005 and there was 17. 17 gosh darn people. omg that's ridiculous!! yea i didnt do anything with them and some of them only lasted like a week or two if that...but still that's 17 guys. SEVENTEEN! who does that? some people dont even talk to 17 people in there whole 4 years of high school and i did in a year. and the year aint even done yet. wtf?!?! that's nasty and im a tad bit more than ashamed.
but i guess i did that b/c i was looking for "that guy". the one who i was supposed to be with. the one who swept me off my feet. the only problem was that i never found him. so i kept looking...in all the wrong places obviously. and here i am...alone...still. but at least i know now that it's not smart to talk to everyone who shows interest in hope of him being that guy for me. so i am making some progress right?