Shit happens....
Why can't everything just go well in my life. I am sick of all of the DRAMA!!! Everything is always drama nothing can ever fit right. What the fuck is going on anymore because I sure hells don't know. I can't wait until the day I get out of here I won't be lost anymore. It is just like people make me this way no on can help it I guess. But shit happens. And I am hitting rock bottom all over again. And this sucks to fucken hell. I don't know what I am doing anymore. Life is just all pissy and my moods are getting really bad. I can't so this in here no more. I think I am just going to go somewhere, where I know that I belong. This is fucken bullshit I am not taking this to well I just want to figure out everything on my own because that is the way it has been. Because I know things are going to get better and shit like that but I am not going to get it. Someone is going to push me the wrong way because I am about to explode and it is not going to be a fun thing and that only a few of you know how I am when I get this way and ain't no one going to stop me this time because I have no one up here so it doesn't matter no more. What I do is what I am going to do...Because that is what I think is right I am going to do what I THINK IS RIGHT!! Ain't no one going to stop me either. I hate this bullshit of a place. I want somethings that I can do in my life I hate the fucken system and I am not going to be in it that much longer because I am getting myself out and I know how to do that. But I don't know about staying in New York anymore. Even though I know if I move my problems won't go away but then again I need time and space alone from everyone because I am no handling things that well and I really need something to do because if I don't do it there is going to be even more DRAMA and CHAOS in my life and everyone knows how that has been going for the past 4 years. So yeah that is pretty much it. I am finally FUCKEN LOST AND CONFUSED IN MY LIFE FOR ONCE. I hate this shit!
Well who ever wants to comment go ahead anyone that wants to give me advise or anything like that I don't care because it seems like I am not listening anyway... I am once again back in my own little world where things are right in there and I am not living REALITY right about now and it is to keep myself safe.
Well who ever wants to comment go ahead anyone that wants to give me advise or anything like that I don't care because it seems like I am not listening anyway... I am once again back in my own little world where things are right in there and I am not living REALITY right about now and it is to keep myself safe.