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fucking... FUCK.
thats about all i have to say. why cant i forget?
i TRIED to make my life busy.
i TRIED to occupy my mind. but im not strong enough to deal, and im not strong enough to do anything about it.
why the FUCK did you bring up the past i was trying to forget that.
all day i think of things nowhere near the subject, like a mini-fridge supercomputer. yes i am building that. i came up with a case idea, de-humidifier with moisture sensor that I designed all by myself. air tight and everything, its perfect.
i busy myself all day with new ideas for my computers that i surround myself with because theyre cold, and they wont hurt me unless i leave them on while im inside.
and eitherway a cut or burn will heal.
this apparently is a laceration too deep for my sutures.
and now, i wont be asleep tonight.
i hope you sleep long enough for all the sleep ive lost, la.
im past failure but at least
i TRIED.
SHUT UP
thats about all i have to say. why cant i forget?
i TRIED to make my life busy.
i TRIED to occupy my mind. but im not strong enough to deal, and im not strong enough to do anything about it.
why the FUCK did you bring up the past i was trying to forget that.
all day i think of things nowhere near the subject, like a mini-fridge supercomputer. yes i am building that. i came up with a case idea, de-humidifier with moisture sensor that I designed all by myself. air tight and everything, its perfect.
i busy myself all day with new ideas for my computers that i surround myself with because theyre cold, and they wont hurt me unless i leave them on while im inside.
and eitherway a cut or burn will heal.
this apparently is a laceration too deep for my sutures.
and now, i wont be asleep tonight.
i hope you sleep long enough for all the sleep ive lost, la.
im past failure but at least
i TRIED.
SHUT UP