Letting Go
I find myself inside a cloud of sadness. Change is happening & is happening to fast for me. It was just this week that I was asked to walk into 2 different offices and speak with each boss individually & what they had to say to me hurt my heart. One of them has offered me good things a door of opportunity has just opened it self & is ready for me to walk inside of it, don’t get me wrong it’s great for me and the plans that I already have for myself but in the other hand another door is closing. The one person here at work that I look up to, met with me yesterday to let me know that he is leaving the company. It consumed me emotionally he is my mentor, my teacher and now he is leaving us. I’ve done o’lot of growing up here in the company that I work for. I started 5 months before turning 21 and I’m now 26. Not taking anything from my other boss & my supervisor who have taken me under their wing, everything that I know and why I’m good at my job is because those three people but mainly my mentor. I admit that I tend to get myself attach to those close to me and letting go is one of the hardest things to do.
Some people are happy about the change, others don’t care as long as their job is secured and others are sad/upset because a partnership of 28 years is now broken. I think that I’m the one person who is taking it the hardest though. I feel sad because it sucks that two people who have so much history together are no longer going to be partners. My mentor is leaving & that is the one thing that has me all upset inside. I’m not too concerned about my job because I know that where ever I go I’ll make it. I am happy that I’m staying and that new doors are opening for me here at work. I know that I will continue keeping in touch with my mentor but part of me knows that it won’t be the same.
People say change is good and sure it is whether is good or bad we always benefit from change. Change is the one thing that will never be constant in our lives. But I tell you it’s really a bitch to know that sooner rather than later the one person who has helped you grow won’t be there as much.
To my mentor all I have to say is Thank you for always believing in me, appreciating me and trusting me. It has been an honor to work for an amazing, smart and wonderful person as your self. Whoever comes in here to replace you has some big shoes to fill.