I'm sorry............
*sighs and curls up* I hate feeling like this...I hate feeling like everyone's mad at me for some reason or like I've fucked up somehow... I try my hardest not to be so moody....not to be so sensitive and let everything get to me so easily...but no matter hot hard I try, I just can't seem to manage it... And some of those dearest to me being in snappy moods and flat out ceasing to talk to me for most of an evening during the last two days doesn't make it easier. I feel like I've failed...like I did something to mess up, somehow... I feel like I need to apologize for something when I honestly can't even think of anything specific I've done to apologize for... *sighs*
I'm sorry I'm not perfect...
I'm sorry I can't function just like everyone else...
I'm sorry I don't make sense a lot of the time...
I'm sorry I get upset over the stupidest little things...even when I know it's nothing to be upset about.
I'm sorry my brain doesn't work quite right and I'm not all that smart...
I'm sorry I can't seem to "grow up" and am stuck with a mind well behind the body it's in...
I'm sorry I can't always seem to say things right and end up saying them wrong...
I'm sorry I'm so bloody sensitive and can't seem to learn not to take everything so personally...
I'm sorry I can't seem to take what everybody else sees as a joke...there are some things that just aren't funny to be or that I'm insecure about...
I'm sorry I can't "get" things as easy as everyone else...
I'm sorry I seem like I don't believe anything good can ever happen/be done...I've been smacked down so many times when things seemed to be going well I've gotten to expect it to happen...
I'm sorry I can't help but be paranoid because of how things have gone for me in the past...I value what/who I have, now, and couldn't bear to loose any of it/you...
I'm sorry I'm such a scaredy-cat and am so nervous about things that are new to me...I've always been like that.
I'm sorry if I don't seem like I'm listening when someone tells me things...I really am, I just need to hear it a few times before it finally gets through my head...
But I'm trying...please be patient with me... *sighs*
I'm sorry I'm not perfect...
I'm sorry I can't function just like everyone else...
I'm sorry I don't make sense a lot of the time...
I'm sorry I get upset over the stupidest little things...even when I know it's nothing to be upset about.
I'm sorry my brain doesn't work quite right and I'm not all that smart...
I'm sorry I can't seem to "grow up" and am stuck with a mind well behind the body it's in...
I'm sorry I can't always seem to say things right and end up saying them wrong...
I'm sorry I'm so bloody sensitive and can't seem to learn not to take everything so personally...
I'm sorry I can't seem to take what everybody else sees as a joke...there are some things that just aren't funny to be or that I'm insecure about...
I'm sorry I can't "get" things as easy as everyone else...
I'm sorry I seem like I don't believe anything good can ever happen/be done...I've been smacked down so many times when things seemed to be going well I've gotten to expect it to happen...
I'm sorry I can't help but be paranoid because of how things have gone for me in the past...I value what/who I have, now, and couldn't bear to loose any of it/you...
I'm sorry I'm such a scaredy-cat and am so nervous about things that are new to me...I've always been like that.
I'm sorry if I don't seem like I'm listening when someone tells me things...I really am, I just need to hear it a few times before it finally gets through my head...
But I'm trying...please be patient with me... *sighs*