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I am devoted to language, to communication. I read, I write, and almost always, I feel I am clear, and able to communicate the emotion, sensation, or reason behind whatever it is I'm writing about.
Why is it, then, with some people, every word that I choose careful is taken differently than I have intended? What can I do to fix this? I try to change how I use the words, or even admit my own bias - my jealousies, my possessiveness, by compulsive, obsessive tendencies - but no matter what I do, I feel I am always mistaken. My heart beats quickly as I realize what's going on, like the statue in my hands is crumbling to sand and I must scramble feverently, grasp tightly, and struggle to hold onto what few shards remain of it to try and rebuild it.
What can I do better, I wonder?
Why is it, then, with some people, every word that I choose careful is taken differently than I have intended? What can I do to fix this? I try to change how I use the words, or even admit my own bias - my jealousies, my possessiveness, by compulsive, obsessive tendencies - but no matter what I do, I feel I am always mistaken. My heart beats quickly as I realize what's going on, like the statue in my hands is crumbling to sand and I must scramble feverently, grasp tightly, and struggle to hold onto what few shards remain of it to try and rebuild it.
What can I do better, I wonder?