once again im sorry.... but its not like im purposly ignorin u all or anythin... ive never had so much before me like this and im obviously not handling it very well.. im sorry... but i realize that friendship is probly the most important thing in life... trust me i kno more than u can imagine... but ive wanted a g/f like i have... im not good lookin, funny, or smart.. so im sorry that i want to hang on to wut i found... i feel so privledged to call aimee mine.. and im sry that i presumed that my friends would realize that!... im sorry that i hoped that my friends would stand by me like i have so many times through this rough time and not ask for somethin in return... now i kno i sound mean there... but i dont mean it like that... i love my friends so very much.. and i have realized time and time again how special you all are! im very sorry that recently i havent let u all kno that personally... and im very sorry if u think .. no that we are slippin apart... but like i said.. i swear to you im tryin... now i dont mean to like show off or sound idk selfish or w/e... but if u look at my schedule ull see i do have a lot *and im NOT sayin that u dont! trust me i kno alota ppl out there who have it harder than me!* im just sayin im NOT used to this and im still learnin how to deal w/ it all! im sorry! im still fairly new to the datin world and i guess idk the rules for dividin my time b/w aimee and my friends! im sorry!!!! but as for my schedule just school alone is drivin me mad (w/ 2 math classes *w/ swaney :(* AP PHYSICS :( :( my comp class which im startin to HATE w/ tons of h/w a government class where the teacher is an absolute moron who shoves his ideals and opinions on us *yes even on his tests* and finally my history which for some damn reason im actually havin trouble with!) then to top that i have two fucking plays to bounce practices with... a tennis season which now i dont know if i can even play... TWO PARENTS HOUNDING ME TO GET A JOB... all the money problems u can think of! plus i need to rely on others to get around... now add to that a g/f *who im fallin in love w/ and who i wish i was better for (so i wanna change myself to become better)* AND friends who r feelin left out and abandoned (which i feel sooo awful about and hope to fix) ..... add it all together and im goin nuts... im sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! super sorry!... but im TRYING.... and thats the best i can do :\ ... sorry if its not enough!
I don't want you to hate me but i want you to know that I am hurt about what you have done. I don't want it to hurt our relationship as friends but i wanted to let you know that people are hurt by you...I do feel bad for things I have said because i DO understand where you are coming from...now...it just hurts but i didn't want to risk our little friendship we still have...
i didnt mean for it to sound like im mad at u or nethin! i do understand wut ur tellin me... i dont want our friendship to get worse... but im not responding like this to threaten our friendship... just to try to understand... i wanna fix everythin... could u tell me who this is?
aw dont be ashamed!... seriously im not lookin to find out who this is to confront u or anythin.. id just like to kno... :).. thank u for being so honest with me tho... i do realize ive been very jerky but im tryin to be the alex u knew again!
P.s. how come u cant tell me who u r!?
Reply
Reply
Reply
Reply
Reply
Leave a comment