Jun 26, 2005 12:11
I've done a lot of pondering about this live journal and I decided that I am still going to use this to vent, because now that I don't see my friends every day, I'll need this to keep them updated. So sorry if anyone gets offended or anything, but that's just how things are gonna be.
I didn't really read my yearbook until just now because I was looking someone up and then I found somewhere that a person signed and I never saw, blah blah, so anyway I was just reading what everyone wrote. I got really emo, and it's not even because I'm sad, I had some happy tears. I think I just have this negative attitude toward people because there are so many stupid whores and dumb people in general that I've come in contact with in the past few years, but I'm genuinely going to try and stop judgin people right away. Because when I just read what some of my good and even not so good of friends said, especially referring to all the shit I went through this year with my cousin and Jon and stupid friends, I realized that everyone really was paying attention and worried about me and there are people that really do care about me. And it's so great to know that other people do notice that even though I did have trouble dealing with it all, I am a strong person and I did handle it all the best I could. So anyway, knowing that, I was just crying so hard and on top of that I was mad at Jon too... so yeah everyone knows I'm emotional so I don't really feel the need to explain myself.
I know this is like the corniest entry and everyone can make fun of me but I don't care. When I met some cool people at Heather's graduation party and getting to know my softball team better and all the other stuff I've been doing- I've realized that not everyone is an asshole. So I'm just really happy about it all, and I miss my friends, but I want everyone to know that even though I don't get to see you every day I still think about everyone all the time.
And also-this is the corniest part I KNOW- I just want to say I'm really sorry to anyone whose feelings I might have hurt this year, because I know that when I was going crazy I was a bitch all the time. And although a lot of people know me and were able to deal with it, some people probably couldn't, and for that I'm sorry. But now saying all this I also want to include that I'm so excited for college now and I'm gonna stop worrying about what's gonna happen with keeping in touch with people and staying with my boyfriend. Everything is gonna be fine. Ok I feel a lot better now. This was long so I'll give you some lyrics another day. LoveHugsandKisses- ok the end, ok bye.