up late...
so its about 4 in the morning and im wide awake. so i have alot on my mind and i just need to let it all out.
these past couple of days, all i have been doing is partying and sleeping. its been cool and all but i cant believe im saying this but i think im tired of partying all the time. i also decided im not going to drink so much because im getting really chunky. i really need to get back into shape and start working on my solo. ive decided to do "dance, dance" by Fall Out Boy because its a fun song and has a fast tempo. oh yea. i also decided that i officialy hate school and i plan to burn it down one day. lol jk. even though i do believe it stinks! teachers suck too. but anyways back to the point of my entry.
lately ive been asked by some many people (including my dad) what i plan to change about myself for the new year. and ive been thinking why should people change things about themselves because shouldnt everyone be real and themselves. i know you can like change things by saying youre getting on a diet or that ur gonna attend church more often and those are all good stuff but why do we have to cahnge. i like the type of person i am. yea i know im not as open as i should be and i dont speak my mind when everyone else does but i could fucking care less. i know i lie all the time. and i usually act fake around certain people and you know why i do that because i cant be myself around a bunch of fake ass people. like how can i be myself when everyone else around me is be all gay and shit and just being fucking annoying. maybe feel the same way about me but i have a reason for being fake around those people is because they are all a bunch of bitches. B-I-T-C-H-E-S!!!!!! i fucking cant stand them. they can all go do drugs have sex get aid and shit and u know what....i dont give a flying fuck. and you know why......because i dont even see those people as real friends. dude i swear i cant believe im saying this but i honestly feel i have only one friend and i have lost touch with her this past year. man i was so close to her and it all went away when i met these bitches. dude it really pisses me off.
well now i feel better letting all that stress out. now i can go off and drink a nice cup of hot chocolate!
peace out!
ALMA
these past couple of days, all i have been doing is partying and sleeping. its been cool and all but i cant believe im saying this but i think im tired of partying all the time. i also decided im not going to drink so much because im getting really chunky. i really need to get back into shape and start working on my solo. ive decided to do "dance, dance" by Fall Out Boy because its a fun song and has a fast tempo. oh yea. i also decided that i officialy hate school and i plan to burn it down one day. lol jk. even though i do believe it stinks! teachers suck too. but anyways back to the point of my entry.
lately ive been asked by some many people (including my dad) what i plan to change about myself for the new year. and ive been thinking why should people change things about themselves because shouldnt everyone be real and themselves. i know you can like change things by saying youre getting on a diet or that ur gonna attend church more often and those are all good stuff but why do we have to cahnge. i like the type of person i am. yea i know im not as open as i should be and i dont speak my mind when everyone else does but i could fucking care less. i know i lie all the time. and i usually act fake around certain people and you know why i do that because i cant be myself around a bunch of fake ass people. like how can i be myself when everyone else around me is be all gay and shit and just being fucking annoying. maybe feel the same way about me but i have a reason for being fake around those people is because they are all a bunch of bitches. B-I-T-C-H-E-S!!!!!! i fucking cant stand them. they can all go do drugs have sex get aid and shit and u know what....i dont give a flying fuck. and you know why......because i dont even see those people as real friends. dude i swear i cant believe im saying this but i honestly feel i have only one friend and i have lost touch with her this past year. man i was so close to her and it all went away when i met these bitches. dude it really pisses me off.
well now i feel better letting all that stress out. now i can go off and drink a nice cup of hot chocolate!
peace out!
ALMA