I WILL raise my hands up to You
Yesterday I had every intention of blogging, because my heart felt so so so heavy. Here is a bit of what I was starting to write but then stopped:
I'm feeling quite down today. I can't help the feeling, I suppose us women can be led by emotions on so many levels! It's hard sometimes, but hey, I gotta keep standing on Gods rock!
The reason why I am down has to do with two things. My friend Blanca, and well.....racism (I just finished watching Mama Flora's Family).
Everything was peachy keen on Sunday morning. Went to church really early to help out with "Missions Sunday", we were raising money to send out to other countries and missionaries. Service was also absolutely awesome, God always gives pastor such awesome words to penetrate the very core of your soul. Everything was just beautiful.
That is until we went to look for Blanca's daughter. Now, alot goes on with people around me but I never discuss it here because I really don't feel it's necessary. Although right now I feel that it is because I need to get it off my chest!
I never got around to finishing it...I just did not have the energy to get into it. So then today I go to check my email and there is one from Blanca!! Read.
GOOD MORNING BEAUTIFUL, I PRAY ALL IS WELL WITH YOU. AS FOR MYSELF I AM JUST BLESSED TO HAVE ANOTHER DAY TO WAKE UP AND PRAISE MY FATHER. FRANNIE I WANT YOU TO KNOW YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO ME. YOU ARE TRULY MY SISTER IN EVERY POSSIBLE WAY. WHAT YOU DID FOR ME ON SUNDAY HAS NO WORDS. TO SEE HOW YOU FELT MY PAIN, BLEW ME AWAY. THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. I DON'T WANT TO SEE MY DRAMA IN ANY WAY AFFECT YOU. REMEMBER HOW MARTY ALWAYS SAYS DO NOT ALLOW IT TO GROW ROOT. THIS SHOULD BE AN EXPERINCE FOR YOU, SO YOU CAN LOVE YOUR MOM WITH ALL YOUR HEART. JUST KEEP HER IN PRAYER AND BELIEVE THAT GOD WILL CHANGE HER IN EVERY WAY FOR HIS HONOR AND GLORY. I AM BELIEVING THAT GOD WILL TAKE CARE OF US, AND BY HIS GRACE WE WILL SEE OUR LOVED ONES HUMBLE BEFORE GOD. NEVER LET ANYTHING GET YOU DOWN, GOD IS IN CONTROL OF EVERYTHING.I TRULY BELIEVE ON SUNDAY WHEN THE GENTLE MAN SANG THE SONG LAVANTO MIS MANOS, IT WAS FOR ALL OF US. REMEMBER THE WORDS, EVEN WHEN I AM TIRED AND THINK I CAN'T GO ON BECAUSE OF 1 MILLION AND 1 PAINS I AM GOING THROUGH, I JUST LIFT UP MY HANDS AND YOU ARE MY STRENGTH. KEEP THAT IN MIND. IT WAS FOR US FRANNIE BECAUSE GOD KNEW WE WERE GOING TO GO SEE JAZMINE AND ALL THE OTHER THINGS WE WOULD GO THROUGH. SO LET'S JUST RAISE OUR HANDS TO HIM AND PRAISE HIM. HE GOTS OUR BACK NO MATTER WHAT. SMILE FOR ME SEXY MAMA!!!!!!! WE HAVE THE LORD ON OUR SIDE, SO WHO DARE BE AGAINIST US!!!!!! IT IS ALL GOOD. AS FOR ME AND MY HOUSE HOLD WE WILL SERVE THE LORD. I AM TRUSTING IN HIM FOR OUR FAMILIES.
I LOVE YOU DEARLY FRANIE!!!!!!!! I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE. I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE, WHAT WILL I DO WITHOUT YOU. OH BY THE WAY DID YOU TAKE YOUR PILL? GET ON IT GIRL BEFORE I GO OVER THERE AND SHOVE IT DOWN!!!!! J/K HA AHA AH
GOD BLESS
JELLY ROLL
I am SO blessed. I keep rereading that and thinking WOW LORD, she didn't even KNOW that I was depressed yesterday, FOR HER. I was SO down. I felt her pain to the very depths of my heart. I hurt so badly for her from what happened on Sunday. AND LOOK!?? She writes me THIS. Isn't she so beautiful? Even through the hardships and trials, she is STILL looking up to God with a faithful heart, knowing that He will get her through. God has blessed me with AMAZING STRONG friends. God, I love them with every drop of my being.
Thank you God for giving me these comforting words. I am ok now. I will be greatful for my mom and show her love so that SHE does not ever have to hurt like Blanca is hurting. I pray that you heal the hurts from the past in Blanca's family. Mend hearts Lord. You are the only doctor that can heal them!! Thank you!! :D
I love you all. Thanks for reading....this much...if you did. :D God bless!
I'm feeling quite down today. I can't help the feeling, I suppose us women can be led by emotions on so many levels! It's hard sometimes, but hey, I gotta keep standing on Gods rock!
The reason why I am down has to do with two things. My friend Blanca, and well.....racism (I just finished watching Mama Flora's Family).
Everything was peachy keen on Sunday morning. Went to church really early to help out with "Missions Sunday", we were raising money to send out to other countries and missionaries. Service was also absolutely awesome, God always gives pastor such awesome words to penetrate the very core of your soul. Everything was just beautiful.
That is until we went to look for Blanca's daughter. Now, alot goes on with people around me but I never discuss it here because I really don't feel it's necessary. Although right now I feel that it is because I need to get it off my chest!
I never got around to finishing it...I just did not have the energy to get into it. So then today I go to check my email and there is one from Blanca!! Read.
GOOD MORNING BEAUTIFUL, I PRAY ALL IS WELL WITH YOU. AS FOR MYSELF I AM JUST BLESSED TO HAVE ANOTHER DAY TO WAKE UP AND PRAISE MY FATHER. FRANNIE I WANT YOU TO KNOW YOU MEAN SO MUCH TO ME. YOU ARE TRULY MY SISTER IN EVERY POSSIBLE WAY. WHAT YOU DID FOR ME ON SUNDAY HAS NO WORDS. TO SEE HOW YOU FELT MY PAIN, BLEW ME AWAY. THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. I DON'T WANT TO SEE MY DRAMA IN ANY WAY AFFECT YOU. REMEMBER HOW MARTY ALWAYS SAYS DO NOT ALLOW IT TO GROW ROOT. THIS SHOULD BE AN EXPERINCE FOR YOU, SO YOU CAN LOVE YOUR MOM WITH ALL YOUR HEART. JUST KEEP HER IN PRAYER AND BELIEVE THAT GOD WILL CHANGE HER IN EVERY WAY FOR HIS HONOR AND GLORY. I AM BELIEVING THAT GOD WILL TAKE CARE OF US, AND BY HIS GRACE WE WILL SEE OUR LOVED ONES HUMBLE BEFORE GOD. NEVER LET ANYTHING GET YOU DOWN, GOD IS IN CONTROL OF EVERYTHING.I TRULY BELIEVE ON SUNDAY WHEN THE GENTLE MAN SANG THE SONG LAVANTO MIS MANOS, IT WAS FOR ALL OF US. REMEMBER THE WORDS, EVEN WHEN I AM TIRED AND THINK I CAN'T GO ON BECAUSE OF 1 MILLION AND 1 PAINS I AM GOING THROUGH, I JUST LIFT UP MY HANDS AND YOU ARE MY STRENGTH. KEEP THAT IN MIND. IT WAS FOR US FRANNIE BECAUSE GOD KNEW WE WERE GOING TO GO SEE JAZMINE AND ALL THE OTHER THINGS WE WOULD GO THROUGH. SO LET'S JUST RAISE OUR HANDS TO HIM AND PRAISE HIM. HE GOTS OUR BACK NO MATTER WHAT. SMILE FOR ME SEXY MAMA!!!!!!! WE HAVE THE LORD ON OUR SIDE, SO WHO DARE BE AGAINIST US!!!!!! IT IS ALL GOOD. AS FOR ME AND MY HOUSE HOLD WE WILL SERVE THE LORD. I AM TRUSTING IN HIM FOR OUR FAMILIES.
I LOVE YOU DEARLY FRANIE!!!!!!!! I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE. I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE, WHAT WILL I DO WITHOUT YOU. OH BY THE WAY DID YOU TAKE YOUR PILL? GET ON IT GIRL BEFORE I GO OVER THERE AND SHOVE IT DOWN!!!!! J/K HA AHA AH
GOD BLESS
JELLY ROLL
I am SO blessed. I keep rereading that and thinking WOW LORD, she didn't even KNOW that I was depressed yesterday, FOR HER. I was SO down. I felt her pain to the very depths of my heart. I hurt so badly for her from what happened on Sunday. AND LOOK!?? She writes me THIS. Isn't she so beautiful? Even through the hardships and trials, she is STILL looking up to God with a faithful heart, knowing that He will get her through. God has blessed me with AMAZING STRONG friends. God, I love them with every drop of my being.
Thank you God for giving me these comforting words. I am ok now. I will be greatful for my mom and show her love so that SHE does not ever have to hurt like Blanca is hurting. I pray that you heal the hurts from the past in Blanca's family. Mend hearts Lord. You are the only doctor that can heal them!! Thank you!! :D
I love you all. Thanks for reading....this much...if you did. :D God bless!