"And you cannot run or ever, ever escape"
Mingle. Date. Officially Date. Complicate. Fight. Make Up. Repeat. Fight. Break Up. Hate. Mingle With Others. Date Others. Make Up. Talk. Meet Up. Fight. Ignore. Forget.
If anyone knows anything about me, it's that I care too much. I have enough care to support a small town. I however, went through a relationship and breakup and still am recovering from the obsession I built up for this girl Valerie. The attraction, referred to as obsession for lack of a better term and the fact that I loved her, fucked me up after the break up. My first semester in college was rough, in part to a new environment, new life, but also due to the looming thought of wanting her back. Ive never experienced a break up where I was the "breakup-ee" not the "breakup-er". Im used to having control of the situation, at least in relationships. Possibly its a male thing. Probably it's a Zack thing. I got too close. I fell too hard. I'm still reaping the consequences. I spoke too much of this ill-fated situation that now I think it's been a good 2 months since I mentioned anything of feelings towards Valerie or the like. I may speak to close friends but for about 2 months Ive done my best to forget and move on. I think it's helped. I'm going to continue to forget and move on. I have to put her behind me. Friendship wise, we were/are best friends. Relationships do ruin most friendships. But really, if given a chance to have a relationship at expense of a good friendship, Ill always choice the first over the latter. Theres no logic behind it. Its just something I would do.
I really haven't dealt with this kind of thing. Maybe its something most people deal with in mature relationships. I don't really hold our relationship as a very mature relationship, so it's probably something just I had to deal with for my specific situation. Whatever the case may be, I hate the situation. I wish things were different. But thats why we don't have things sometimes. So we can wish for them.
If anyone knows anything about me, it's that I care too much. I have enough care to support a small town. I however, went through a relationship and breakup and still am recovering from the obsession I built up for this girl Valerie. The attraction, referred to as obsession for lack of a better term and the fact that I loved her, fucked me up after the break up. My first semester in college was rough, in part to a new environment, new life, but also due to the looming thought of wanting her back. Ive never experienced a break up where I was the "breakup-ee" not the "breakup-er". Im used to having control of the situation, at least in relationships. Possibly its a male thing. Probably it's a Zack thing. I got too close. I fell too hard. I'm still reaping the consequences. I spoke too much of this ill-fated situation that now I think it's been a good 2 months since I mentioned anything of feelings towards Valerie or the like. I may speak to close friends but for about 2 months Ive done my best to forget and move on. I think it's helped. I'm going to continue to forget and move on. I have to put her behind me. Friendship wise, we were/are best friends. Relationships do ruin most friendships. But really, if given a chance to have a relationship at expense of a good friendship, Ill always choice the first over the latter. Theres no logic behind it. Its just something I would do.
I really haven't dealt with this kind of thing. Maybe its something most people deal with in mature relationships. I don't really hold our relationship as a very mature relationship, so it's probably something just I had to deal with for my specific situation. Whatever the case may be, I hate the situation. I wish things were different. But thats why we don't have things sometimes. So we can wish for them.