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As life has progressed this week, things just keep getting weirder and weirder. Now that I’m feeling better, maybe I can get some of it out. I hung out with an old friend on Thursday night, yup, just hung out, and I actually had a really great time. It turned out that there were a lot of things he really wanted to talk about that I suppose I was the appropriate person for him to go to. That was the weird, now for the weirder.
Thursday night I received a phone call informing me that a person that I have been a bit wary of would be returning permanently to the state of Michigan. Now the weirder part, is that he was doing this without his wife, hence a divorce. I knew this was going to slightly complicate my life, knowing that I wouldn’t feel welcome at my other family’s house anymore. But yesterday, I called my little brother, and who answered the phone? None other than the person I had been dreading all along. I suppose he wants to be civil now, since we carried on a 20 minute conversation. As good as this is, it’s still weird. I really want to be friends with him, but I get the feeling that if I hang out with him, old feelings may come back. But maybe that’s not a bad thing, cuz a lot of my old feelings were anger. Who knows. It’s going to be very weird around here for a while. But at least the feeling of someone sitting on my chest is gone for the moment, too many other things to think about now.
Also, I sang at church last night…SOLO! To me it didn’t sound all that great just cuz I was soooo nervous. I was completely shaking. But I am proud of me for overcoming my stage fright for the first time! Now I just gotta keep going with it…every week, and eventually I won’t be as nervous. Oh well, off to physics lab I go!
Ta-ta for now!