Oct 10, 2005 08:37
I understand if you may not want to see me anymore, and that's fine. And I thought we could be friends, but after finding out a few things, I don't know if that's possible. I did everything for you and all I got back was nothing. For the first time in my life, I had a relationship where I was so faithful that I turned down the one thing I had been wanting for so long...and I'm sure I can't get that back now.
But it is a real stab in the back for me to hear that you told everyone that you were gonna do it a LONG time before you did. I don't know exactly when or who you told, but news travels faster than you think and it looks like we both have friends that we maybe shouldn't trust. But what I do know is that while you were busy trying to make me feel like everything was fine, acting normal, making me feel like I was safe; they were all watching and waiting. Thank you for making me look like a complete idiot. And thank you for making this alot harder than it could have been by pretending everything was fine and actually being a good boyfriend for once when all you were doing was waiting to spit the words out.
You said you were sorry, and I believed it...I suppose everythings changed now. I'm so disappointed in you.