*sigh* Rest In Peace.. My mom.. I love you.
Hello all, I can't even think right now... or what to really say.. cause I am speechless.. ok.. last night.. I got seriously depressed.. and Chris witnessed this.. I just could not stop crying because I had this overwhelming sad feeling.. and I could not control it.. I just kept feeling severly depressed... and scared..and I knew something terrible was gonna happen.. and passed out from exhaustion from crying so much.. then today when I woke up.. I knew something terrible was gonna happen I just didn't prepare myself for it. So, I thought it would pass hopefully but that feeling still was there the next day..
When it was about after midnight... I thought ok good.. nothing bad happened.. and I was ok.. but that feeling still didn't go away. Unfortunately, around 15 mins before 1 am my Dad calls me.. and I freak out cause my dad doesn't call me that late UNLESS something bad has happened.. and He said...Just wanted to let you know that I am officially a widow.. I YELLED WHAT! YOU ARE KIDDING !!! ARE YOU SERIOUS?? and he said yes.. My wife your mother passed away from a massive heart attack at midnight.
I busted out crying and was shaking and my heart beating out of my chest.. and I was saying NO!!!!! and then kicking myself for not visiting her since Christmas eve..
I still am shaking.. I can't even process this.. I don't believe it.. its a bad dream and I can't wake up from...I loved her so much.. and I dont wanna believe that she is gone..but it is true.. But she is in a better place now, shes with my Aunt, grandma and grandpa....and I really hope she is happy.. I LOVE YOU MOM!!!!! R.I.P. Marie Minten.
When it was about after midnight... I thought ok good.. nothing bad happened.. and I was ok.. but that feeling still didn't go away. Unfortunately, around 15 mins before 1 am my Dad calls me.. and I freak out cause my dad doesn't call me that late UNLESS something bad has happened.. and He said...Just wanted to let you know that I am officially a widow.. I YELLED WHAT! YOU ARE KIDDING !!! ARE YOU SERIOUS?? and he said yes.. My wife your mother passed away from a massive heart attack at midnight.
I busted out crying and was shaking and my heart beating out of my chest.. and I was saying NO!!!!! and then kicking myself for not visiting her since Christmas eve..
I still am shaking.. I can't even process this.. I don't believe it.. its a bad dream and I can't wake up from...I loved her so much.. and I dont wanna believe that she is gone..but it is true.. But she is in a better place now, shes with my Aunt, grandma and grandpa....and I really hope she is happy.. I LOVE YOU MOM!!!!! R.I.P. Marie Minten.