yea mhmm
pised caus im mad tired but cant go to sleep. i gotz a shit load on my mind and idk wtf to do bout it. i love joey and wantto be there for him 'n all and help him wit dis fucked up shit he's been dealing with for the past .... i dont even know how long it seems like its been FOREVER! but my minds all over the fucking place i find myself thinking bout other ppl constantly. not in like dating terms or w/e but for some reason i got these two fuckin people on my mind.. ****** and ******!!! ahhhhhhhhhh... idk what to do to change it! and it doesnt help things are wierd wit kevin like i dont love him anymore but hes single and he misses me and wants to love me again some day but i dont want to put my fuckin heart back out there again i think it belongs wit joey and i couldnt fuckin put my relationship wit joey out on the line for kevin. if it was ment to be i would have been able to give joey up before no questions asked and wit no regrets and run back to kevin. BUT now the thought of wat the fuck happend before makes e fuckin soo sick to my god damn stomach .. idk if it was the timing was off or bad karma or wat but it wasnt workin and i dont think dat shit will ever work im sorry!!! anyways joey asked me to go to semi wit him and i said probably not ... i feel bad but its just ... not for everybody and i honestly coudnt care less. so he's trying to take it lightly and also asked me bout prom and i said yessss deffinetly but anyways im done fucking venting/rambling bout gay shit dat just isnt even worth worrying bout!!!!!!!