bad girl
I was a bad girl today and skipped my classes. I wasnt feeling all that well, but im all good now of coarse lol i finally got a job and now i can make some income. woohoo. i owe my parents way too much money for the last month and a half that i was unemployed. The school semester is almost over but when im don with that im taking two courses in the summer. but it shouldnt be that bad hopefully. Im really looking foreward to this summer. for all the obvious reasons and a couple specific reasons that i shall not reveal.:P it should be interesting.
Lately ive done alot of thinking about my life and thinking of different ways too improve it. For one, I am way too lazy. I need to keep myself busy so that i dont have the time to sit down and be lazy. lol Second i worry way to much about what other people are thinking. Maybe cuz i do it way to much. I judge people so i suspect they are judging me. Trying terribly hard to change that. ill stop talking about this cuz you get the picture.
My stephie is away in philly.:( i miss her something aweful. but shes doing what she does best. talking! lol she will be back soon. im sure lee misses her too. we all miss her.
I hung out with d yesterday. it was fun we hung out at the mall. he shared his obssession with the boston red sox. he cried wtching the ring ceremonies. lol hes too funny. for all of you that dont know who d is he has become one of my good friends through what i would call an unforunate escapade. its a long story and i dont feel like explaining. anywhoo we walked around the mall looked at a tiki bar at spencers for his apartment. we talked about random stuff. i told him about my situation with boy that if far away and wont be back for a while. and he was making me feel worse and worse. saying that i wouldnt have anyone to cuddle with or kiss or hang out with for three months. your thinking what an asshole right? well i dont think d really realizes how his words can really effect a person and i think because i do understand him that it didnt really bother me all that much. i mean it does suck that i wont be able to express my feelings for this person. but i know that i will soon and just knowing that is what helps me. i wish he was here and i wish we could be together but he is where he needs to be right now and im not the kind of person to give up. in other words i am stubborn.
^perfect example of rambling totally went from one subject to another without blinking. Maybe its because thats really what i want to talk about but im afraid to. afraid to think to much of it, blow it into something its not. which i tend to do alot (another thing im trying to work on)there is something between me and this boy but i think im the only one willing to admit it.
ahhh i have to stop talking about that lol. im going to stop there and save this for later maybe a letter lol.
"Don't wait for the world to change, change it yourself"
Ally
Lately ive done alot of thinking about my life and thinking of different ways too improve it. For one, I am way too lazy. I need to keep myself busy so that i dont have the time to sit down and be lazy. lol Second i worry way to much about what other people are thinking. Maybe cuz i do it way to much. I judge people so i suspect they are judging me. Trying terribly hard to change that. ill stop talking about this cuz you get the picture.
My stephie is away in philly.:( i miss her something aweful. but shes doing what she does best. talking! lol she will be back soon. im sure lee misses her too. we all miss her.
I hung out with d yesterday. it was fun we hung out at the mall. he shared his obssession with the boston red sox. he cried wtching the ring ceremonies. lol hes too funny. for all of you that dont know who d is he has become one of my good friends through what i would call an unforunate escapade. its a long story and i dont feel like explaining. anywhoo we walked around the mall looked at a tiki bar at spencers for his apartment. we talked about random stuff. i told him about my situation with boy that if far away and wont be back for a while. and he was making me feel worse and worse. saying that i wouldnt have anyone to cuddle with or kiss or hang out with for three months. your thinking what an asshole right? well i dont think d really realizes how his words can really effect a person and i think because i do understand him that it didnt really bother me all that much. i mean it does suck that i wont be able to express my feelings for this person. but i know that i will soon and just knowing that is what helps me. i wish he was here and i wish we could be together but he is where he needs to be right now and im not the kind of person to give up. in other words i am stubborn.
^perfect example of rambling totally went from one subject to another without blinking. Maybe its because thats really what i want to talk about but im afraid to. afraid to think to much of it, blow it into something its not. which i tend to do alot (another thing im trying to work on)there is something between me and this boy but i think im the only one willing to admit it.
ahhh i have to stop talking about that lol. im going to stop there and save this for later maybe a letter lol.
"Don't wait for the world to change, change it yourself"
Ally