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i'm feelin really insecure lately, physically.
i want to stop but you can't just stop, ya know?
i really hate a lot of things, i want them to go away.
& i dont like how 99% of my random daydreaming time consists of being concerned and disgusted with things about myself.. and worrying that i look disgusting.
blah.
christmas is in like 3 days :)
before i thought it really felt like christmas.
but acutally it doesn't at all lol
and its so sad bc the older you get, the less magical christmas is. like, there's 3 days left. that doesn't leave much room for partying, and christmas spirit. blah, i wish it was still the same. it came so fast. when i was 10 the days before christmas were the longest freakkkin days. and they seriously went by so fast. between work and school and other shit christmas is just like another thing coming up & the time flies. haha.
blahhh christmas morning is always amazing though, no matter what.
& i still think this is going to be a really good christmas.
w/e well seeeeEE
i want to stop but you can't just stop, ya know?
i really hate a lot of things, i want them to go away.
& i dont like how 99% of my random daydreaming time consists of being concerned and disgusted with things about myself.. and worrying that i look disgusting.
blah.
christmas is in like 3 days :)
before i thought it really felt like christmas.
but acutally it doesn't at all lol
and its so sad bc the older you get, the less magical christmas is. like, there's 3 days left. that doesn't leave much room for partying, and christmas spirit. blah, i wish it was still the same. it came so fast. when i was 10 the days before christmas were the longest freakkkin days. and they seriously went by so fast. between work and school and other shit christmas is just like another thing coming up & the time flies. haha.
blahhh christmas morning is always amazing though, no matter what.
& i still think this is going to be a really good christmas.
w/e well seeeeEE